2013!!!

Wow! What amazing holiday festivities, it is December 27th and I still have a tree with presents to be opened, I am learning to put myself first. So much to do :)

This picture means so much to me, It needed a blog trying to describe what it means to me. :)

I love my bed, every night I get into bed, I think of the small act of putting myself first. On my 26th birthday I decided to "treat myself" and buying myself a bed, that was a big moment for me! Acting in faith, I got an amazing bed connection and I can get anyone the greatest deal on beds $4,000 beds for like $600! I am overwhelmed with gratitude for that, I love it. When I see my bed I smile because it symbolizes my sacred place of rest, my sister's kindness with my "Libra Pillow" and my "God Pillow" and of course the fact that I took action towards feeling like I deserve to buy myself something. So my bed, which is my sacred place, is always made, "how are you going to make a million dollars if you can't even make your bed?!" "How you do anything is how you do EVERYTHING." Then my tribute to astrology and to God (by way of pillows) and God always comes first in that. Then a selection of the books I need to read to prepare me for the transition at the first of the year and my 2013 structured book list according to my plan. Then my right leg has a cute reminder that I need to pray. When I see it, I pray and express gratitude for my life, it's awesome! and I am in my undies on my bed notebooking in that picture which makes me smile huge. I have my iPad, my Scriptures, as a man thinketh & volume 2, "Standing for Something" and an audiobook playing on my iPod, you should get a copy of that book "Standing for Something!" It'll change your life! God is heavily involved in this entire notebook session and it was the perfect way to spend my cold December night :)

I feel abundant, I feel so much love and joy and gratitude for my life. I am 27, I am alive, I am healthy, I am LDS, I found it! hahaha! I feel peace throughout every day, that void of lonely and empty feelings was filled with God, I love being LDS, that has been an incredible journey and I don't know who I would be without that. I reflect on my year and what I have to be grateful for and THAT is what stands out to me more than family, more than friends, more than success, material things, it's being LDS... God is so good to me, 3.5 years ago I made a decision to walk a higher path, to strive to be better, to progress and to live extraordinary and to realize my potential I became LDS, I was looking, I was missing something and THAT was it, it took me a year and a half to be open to it, I had a completely warped view on it, but I eventually found it, or it found me I should say. Since then I learned that I am not alone. This year there have been so many amazing lessons I have learned through all of that. If you're not LDS, just disregard anything pertaining to it. I don't want to offend you, but I don't want to censor myself, there are many rivers to one ocean I am just gushing with gratitude for the path I found. :) It really has impacted my year more than anything and everything put together. I wouldn't have made it this year without it.

All of these things that I have learned this year were through people's examples, conversations, books, but all through experiences. Whew, this was a wild and heavy year!

This year, 2012... I learned and truly know in my heart of hearts all these things:

I learned that I am more than enough. I believe that with my whole soul.

I learned how to be vulnerable, that is where Joy and Happiness are found, what makes me vulnerable is what makes me beautiful.

I learned how to receive, I never knew how that worked before and I was awful at that, it's changed my life.

I learned that God truly loves me, is VERY real and that if you ask him anything sincerely, he will answer you EVERY time if you are open to receiving it. That was a hard lesson to learn, hehe I am prideful and stubborn sometimes. :)

I learned that I am NOTHING without God, literally nothing. I am capable of maybe 2% in this life at my best. God brings the other 98% and we call that grace, and through the atonement that's possible.

I learned how to be consistent with just about every aspect of my life.

I learned that I am worthy of the deepest love and I believe that with my whole soul

I learned that I deserve my eternal companion and soul mate, I never believed that before.

I learned how to love deeper than I ever thought I was capable of

I learned to forgive, to truly forgive

I learned how to ask forgiveness. This was so hard!

I learned to be the bigger person. This was also VERY difficult

I learned to let go.  95% of what we worry about never happens, the 5% that does, isn't as bad as we thought it would be and then "Everything happens for a reason."

I learned how to ask God for the lesson he is teaching me through people and situations, patterns and experiences

I learned how to sing without being self conscious.

I learned how to play lead guitar,

I learned to love and be grateful for my insecurities, they make me happy :) I think they make me cute!

I learned to have faith in God's timing

I learned to just be at peace because what is supposed to happen will happen, and where I am supposed to be.. I AM.

I learned to love every part of who I am because of who I am.

I learned God doesn't make mistakes, to not like something/hate something/someone is blasphemous, he created everything perfectly imperfect. Who am I to say I don't like something? I have been given so much! Eyesight alone is more than I could ever ask for and I am blessed to have it, let alone my physical health/

I learned not to settle in any aspect of my life.

I learned faith. To truly believe with my whole soul and to act on it. Faith comes in the action.

I learned a great deal about law and legal proceedings.

and I learned how to communicate my feelings on a much deeper level, for that I am forever grateful.

I feel like 2012 was the prep year for 2013.

This year was one of the hardest years that I have ever had in my life, I am truly grateful for all the struggle that I have faced. I figured out who I am and what I am supposed to be doing for the next 30-40 years. I am excited to move forward on that plan, I just started school and I am learning with voracity what I need to learn to go into the next phase of this life. It's time to stabilize my life and pour gas on the fire. This year looks so promising. I feel like the boy that cried wolf in love. I would love to have love, I am super idealistic, a hopeless romantic that gives a great deal, I have been single for almost 5 years, I haven't found someone that can receive me fully, I have let all of that go, I am no longer looking at all. I haven't the time for that. In these past 6 years I have grown so close to my daughter and we have a dynamic relationship, I am forever grateful to God for putting her in my life. It's like having a daughter, a best friend, a travel buddy, a business partner, a mom, a confidant, she holds me accountable, helps me grow and communicate better, she helps me to respect people on a whole different level and she has taught me more than half of the lessons I have listed above through her example and her advice. I am blessed beyond belief to have her in my life. Who needs a girlfriend when you have so much emotional love and support from your own flesh and blood. I love her :) She is patient with me. Hahahaha! I am super intense sometimes! Hahaha! Watching her trials and challenges in life are beautiful, her mom is awesome! I love seeing the dynamic and perspective that comes with that. I am so blessed to have been married before, I look back on that and I am grateful for the man that my ex wife has helped me to become, she continues to help me grow and I love her so much for that. She is an example to me of so many things. :) Halli's life is richly blessed with perspective to have both parents and the families that accompany that. To think, her mom and I will both remarry some time and she will have 4 different families. That is really cool! What a blessed life that is. I hope I can help her life be harmonious and provide her with support, perspective and stability to be there for her through her trials in her life. She's already so strong and smart and intuitively developed for 8 years old. I will continue to study people with prolific intensity so I can best assist her to grow in this life. That's what it's all for. :)

2013 is the quantum leap year, from an outside perspective it will look like THIS WAS THE YEAR 2013, but this is what 5 years of hard work has led up to, the work is compounding. This is THE year. Maybe God says it's time and I meet my eternal companion and end up married, maybe not. Either way, I will not allow myself to be distracted by that this year. There is too much at stake with these next few months and I don't need to be distracted like that, if it happens, it happens, I won't go looking for it. :) 2013 is all about focus. I get to finish real estate school fast, jump in to it full time, get out of my house and find a place to rent or an investment home to live in while I create my net worth, increase my income streams dramatically, tackle the stock market and diversify. Maybe settle down and get married, start BYU in the fall, go get an education, ultimately leading to an MBA and another income stream. Read at least 24 books, listen to AT LEAST 24 audiobooks, get ridiculously proficient on guitar, singing and rapping, progress at fitness through Crossfit, Gold's Gym, and maybe some yoga, Result... Get so ripped. I will strive to treat everyone that I meet as though I am meeting Christ, I will set a good example for the people around me, I will be the best father, son, brother, uncle, cousin, business partner and friend anyone could ever ask for. I will Love with all of my heart, mind, might, strength and soul all of the time, permeating with gratitude for even the littlest things, being transparent and vulnerable, giving all praise to God for helping me become this man, taking no credit... constantly re-calibrating all while travelling all over the world meeting new people and making lasting memories.

THIS IS THE YEAR...

It has to start somewhere... it has to start some time....

What better place than here...  What better time than now...


I have a secret weapon in this life... It's my small and very limited understanding of God's love.
I have a path and a set out structure of things to learn... It's called being LDS
I have a cheat code to this life... It's called Gratitude
I have a blue print to make the year happen... It's called my notebook

I have 3 vehicles to use to accomplish this... They are RevvNRG, Real Estate and BYU.
I have support... They are people that love me because I chose to let them in vulnerably and they see me.
I have a very small and limited understanding of the patterns in front of me and how things work... It has to do with your birthday. :)
I am Kevin Goldberg, I am a son of God... I know who I am, where I am going, and why I am here...

Uhhh!!!

:-D

27... Time to make better choices

Well,

That is the word... Well... I would like to feel that way... 

I received the birthday present of a 101 degree fever, a stuffy nose and much congestion, I thought I was immune to sickness, I was wrong, dead wrong. However, I have made the most of it. I do not feel well.

I cancelled most of my plans for my birthday, I toughed it through some, all in all it was like a "3" birthday on the actual day to day on a 1-10 scale, (all pessimism aside) I truly enjoy the emails, I can't wait to make that book. I think I cried on just about every one. That was a really nice thing that meant a lot to me. Going to Boise was amazing, family stuff was amazing, I feel so much love in my life. I am a very blessed man to have such great people in my life... Okay, not gonna lie... It was so overwhelming, at one point I silenced my phone and physically locked it in another room because it was blowing up and I couldn't handle it. I was sick and did not feel good. LoL! Not exactly the ideal way to spend a birthday. I wanted to go to Famous Daves for my birthday, however, I could not taste a thing so that would be a colossal waste of good BBQ. To top it off, the mosquitoes are honestly breeding in my house, I kill like 30-50 a day... This doesn't make for the best Birthday ever. 

On the largest plus side, I totally may have just set the Guinness book of world records for the most epic chicken noodle soup ever created in a kitchen, I need to look in to that. I also figured out my next step in life and what I am going to do with myself in this future. It's time for another house, time for more money, time to do more real estate, time to get an MBA, time to get married to the woman God has for me, time to start my family and time to get more ripped, 27 is looking real good. This is the year of stepping up and taking control of my life in those aspects. I am blessed :) Time to make better choices...

So I have no idea where to begin to thank you all for your kindness towards me, for your voicemails, your calls, your texts, your voxers, your facebook posts, your facebook messages, your emails, your prayers, your love and your friendships, I have no idea how to reply to that. There were well over 200 just on facebook, I wish you could have witnessed my text message inbox. I didn't quite make the thousands for birthday wishes this year but there were a few hundred. It was quite overwhelming. 

So thank you for making my birthday awesome, without you all this year, my birthday would have been the loneliness of me laying in my dark house alone, being sick, not feeling well and not feeling loved, but instead I was overwhelmed by your love and kindness. 

Happy 27th Birthday to me. :) 

Thank you for being my firends. God loves me, I know that because I have you all as friends. 

What I really want as a Birthday Gift

Hey All!!!

My birthday is October 19th or 20th, I'm not really sure, sad that the birthday guy doesn't know his own birthday, maybe it's time for a new identity. I am 27 this week and as I look back on my life, there are so many of you that have impacted me through your examples, the things you say, the things we have done together, we have so many wonderful memories, funny stories and cool things that we have accomplished together, whether it was once in passing, or through Facebook or maybe we were close once.

So for my birthday this year, (inspired by TJ & Sarah Hayes) I would love more than anything if as a gift you would send me an email to: KevinGoldberg10@gmail.com
That tells the story, memory, or interaction that we have had, how I have maybe impacted you, a memory, send me some love, I would love so much to print them all, put them in a book and feel of your love whenever I am having a down day or I need to draw from your inspiration, I can pick up my book and read through it. Your small act of kindness for my birthday will truly change my life. Then tell everyone you know that knows me, to do the same thing, share and post a link to this blog, make it big. I don't ask for much usually. This is me asking.

If I could have any gift for my 27th Birthday. THAT would be it, it'd mean so much to me, that letter makes it into immortality and I can keep it forever, I am a sentimental guy.

Thank you in advance for taking a half hour out of your year to add so much meaning to my life on such a special day for me by giving me a gift that truly keeps on giving.

-Kevin

Ps: KevinGoldberg10@gmail.com

My Birthday is almost here!!!

Happy Birthday to me!!!

I am going to be 27! Whew... I thought I would be married by now, crazy how things work, right? I am NOT married, not even dating anyone, just single and down to be set up and open to whatever God has for me.


I trail back to 8 years old when I used to dream about when I would be 26.

I thought I would be married to an incredible woman, a woman that "gets it," that loves God with passion, faith and conviction, with an amazing family that loves God as much and lives it, people I would trade places with, she has an incredible relationship with her father & mother, she is confident, she knows who she is, commands respect, tremendous self worth, is wise and possesses vision for God, Life, Family, and Money, she is constantly learning, progressing and growing in all areas, she loves unconditionally, she knows how to receive and how to ask, she is kind, humble, modest, empathetic, charismatic, thoughtful, bold, courageous, simple, intelligent, selfless, frugal, spontaneous, old fashioned, romantic, cheesy, open, expressive, communicative, social, practical, passionate, forgiving, intuitive, perceptive, goal driven, organized, she's easy to please, has an amazing sense of humor, she is laid back, gorgeous, fit, she has Mormon eyes, they dazzle, she has the most adorable smile, and she is always using it, she's honestly like the prettiest girl I have ever met in my life, fitness is important to her, she is beautiful... Let me clarify...

Who she is + her looks + her birthday  X  her spiritual strength = Beautiful. :)

She isn't just beautiful, she's the most beautiful girl I have ever known, she is pure, she is my girl, she sees me for who I am, accepts my faults, loves me for me, helps me to grow and improve and become better, she is attracted to me spiritually, emotionally, mentally, and physically. This girl is so affectionate, playful and she has respect, for herself, for me, for others, she is cuddly she holds my hand, she wants to be a mom and she may or may not have dimples.

I would be successful as a husband, as a father, starting his family, with at least 3 kids, no more than 15. I would be a multi-millionaire, with an 8 figure net worth, and a large diversified investment portfolio and over 150 cash-flowing assets and as far as in business, I would have a few businesses that ran themselves with only a couple hours of work a week, I will put all my time into doing humanitarian work and travelling the globe with my family and friends, helping people and speaking to large audiences all over the world, writing best selling books, and being a famous musician and rapper, doing shows and having a TV show, all while making memories with my friends and family.

In the material world at 7 years old I was dreaming that at 26 I was building a big house with a cul-de-sac with my friends and family all living on the same street, and I would have such a long driveway you would have to ride 4 wheelers to get the mail, some of the features would include a race track, a very big swimming pool, tons of acres of land, a massive garden, a beautiful guest house with the most amazing beds, an amazing patio with grills and smokers for wonderful BBQ's, a recording studio, a steam room in the master, an amazing private balcony with spectacular view, fireplace in the master, a heated driveway facing south, and no one around for at least a half mile.

Wild how 26 truly played out, nothing like my former 8 year old self may have anticipated it would be.

This has been a year of tremendous personal growth, the building up of my self worth, the demolishing of my incessant facade, the letting go of the front I may or may not put up, learning how to receive, learning how to ask, the concept of truly letting people in, the understanding of my emotions, finally recognizing, acknowledging and accepting my strengths, and weaknesses, The building of my confidence in myself and the letting go of my fear of singing and dancing. I learned to love, I learned to love myself, I learned to let go, I learned to love myself through self-consciousness and to calm down, to be still, to be deserving of happiness, I learned that I am enough, that I like who I am, and that I do not have to do life alone or feel lonely, I have myself, but most important lesson I learned was that I am nothing without God, I have God and that is the best place to put my trust and THAT was the single most defining lesson this year.

26 will be fondly remembered, this year queued me up for what I thought 26 would be. I had to become the man that I needed to be, in order to attain these desires. This was the pregame warm up, 27 will be that year but I have enjoyed every minute of this journey so far, the good, the bad, even the ugly, I am grateful I am alive, I am moving the checkers forward, I am healthy and happy, I am sure life could be better, I am sure life could be worse, but it's really beautiful no matter how you look at it.

#Grateful

Looking Forward

I have this desire to do more, to be more and have more. It is a remarkable feeling that won't seem to go away.

I am actively pursuing my dream with all the voracity I contain as a 26 year old man, I am coming into 27 rather quickly and I think to myself, "it is time to get married. You're at the age and it is the next step in life, maybe even before financial and material prosperity, yeah, let's get on that."

So this is my proclamation to the world, my "putting it out there," my APB so to speak, it is October 8th, 2012, less than 2 weeks till 27, and I am ready for "the one."

This is the part where those of you that read this, put some thought into "her" for me, market me, set me up, find her for me, I shall place a bounty on her head. As to what that bounty is, why I am still determining it myself.

I want to fall madly in love, forever, I can hardly fathom what it'll be like having her in my life, I do believe though that the time is now. When and
Where will we meet is what shall haunt my thought processes, I shall go to God in prayer on this one, I do know the main criteria, she has to be between 24-29 years of age, strong LDS that "gets it," and lives the gospel with her whole soul, she's also gorgeous, fit, on my level and has a great family. dimples would be an amazing plus. :)

Hope you have a good week. :)

Set me up, 801-529-3645

Friday Night Lights

Tonight was so sick!!!

Uhhh!!!

First, i spent some super quality time with the love of my life and my best friend Halli, ah I love my daughter, she completes me. She sings the cutest songs ever, it's adorable, I tried recording her today, that's the great challenge, she catches me and stops singing, it's like filming a wild animal hahahaha!!! :) she is the best, we had an epic event in her life that brought us way closer together, it was a good thing. I love her not only for who she is, but for who I am when I am with her.

Next, I got to grow closer to one of my best friends, the man that brought me into my career and to the Lds church, next I got to see the man that baptized me peel out in an M5, so sick! Spiritually I needed a hug from him today, funny how God works, it's been a rough few days, I needed that :)

Then I got to go up into God's great mountains to the top of a peak and celebrate a special birthday with one of my best friends and enjoy a full moon and a good conversation, next I learned so many valuable lessons about myself from one of my best friends while I hiked all through text, I ate clean all day and drank lots of water, I am sore all over and I stretched, it's a hydrate and recover day.

Now I think I will watch braveheart and then play guitar and sing till my fingers hurt and I can't talk tomorrow, I have some learning to do!!!

I am sitting in my car in front of my parents house reminiscing about my life, I just ran into my old Beemer, the guy I sold it to improved it, babies it and it has only had like 5,000 miles put on it, he offered me what I sold it for and it's a way better car now, that was cool, I have been dealing with my ex wife lately, that's been really fun, I have learned so many lessons and continue to grow tremendously through her, I am so grateful for that, it's hard on me sometimes but I am blessed to have that. :) my life is awesome, God is so good to me, I feel so comfortable in this moment, windows down, looking at my old surroundings and thinking about life with my family living in Layton, pre networking, pre LDS, it's a trip, here i am with my hoodie on, in comfy jeans, with a Tahiti, comfy shoes and a smile on my face, it's hoodie weather, my hair is in my favorite style short and sweet and not much maintenance required, and the season is changing. Autumn is here :) its libra month. My favorite self reflection marathon. Time to grow rapidly. 26 is almost done. This is better than new years. New goals, big decisions to make, the becoming of an adult, I am making all the life altering choices right now. Life is at that point, I'd love input in these by a significant other, but it isn't the time or place I suppose, I am open and growing everyday I am becoming the best Kevin Goldberg I can be.

I am ramping up to make a few choice phone calls to a few people to find the people we run with for the rest of our lives, it's time. I have a few months of busy up ahead. Cranking things up, becoming more hypercritical of myself and going into beast mode on every area of my life. Time to be what I wanted to be when I grew up.

I am growing up, 26 was "my year" since I was the littlest boy. It's almost over... I have done a lot of big boy things this year. 27 will be the first year of being who I wanted to be when I grew up. I played around long enough. This was my limit many years ago.

Uhhh!


More to come, stay tuned :) I love you all, thanks for taking time to read this, repost it and share with your friends, I am grateful for your example in my life :)

-K

Boy Do I Love Aries Month

Do you ever get so excited for the next day that you can't go to sleep till like 3am and then you're up at 7 just stoked out of your mind that you get to lift heavy things, run around till you almost puke and then go home and eat plants and animals in your kitchen while you stare lovingly into your notebook and ponder on how many check marks your whiteboard will have on it by the end of the day?

That has been these last few days. This world is so crazy to me, the patterns in everything are incredible and I marvel at it. IT'S NETWORKING SEASON!!! Time to get super fit, up strength and endurance, dial in the wakeboard moves,  learn those last 2 perfect, 10,000 movements before the season has ended, go straight paleo for summer, replace all bad foods for good foods, have fun, learn more guitar songs, Jam with Payton, plan 3 or 4 trips, teach my puppy to not bite, work my business hard for 90 days, help a lot of people make some serious money, find my 6 new best friends in the process, dial the financial fitness together, end legal stuff, invest, and celebrate a few birthdays along the way, with God in the center of everything and while smiling, feeling peace and love and gratitude the entire time. This sounds like it's going to be a good April.

I love aries month, I have some of the most amazing people in my life that are aries. They have the biggest hearts and just give and give and give. They're sensitive but rarely show people openly, they just bite their tongue or internalize it and smile through their tears when they're really hurt and smile and kinda say they'll be okay, while they're breaking on the inside, and then they magically flip a switch, which I'll never understand and in that moment they're just good, and completely fine. It's a passionate love affair that they have with this life, I love them, they're so competetive and strong and they hate losing, I love telling an aries that they can't do something. They like say the funniest things internally about me and then they have to prove themselves and it cracks me up but it's so fun. They're awesome. Such good guys and girls both! I always thought I'd marry an Aries or an Aquarius, it just has to be the right one. I haven't the time to pay attention to dating this month, too much on the agenda for the month... Gonna get silly ripped, dragonfly tan lines, healthy, fit, abundant, happy and grateful, God is so good and faith is such a cool thing, I can feel so much love from God, it's so sick! He totally blesses us for being good. We are on this giant playground called life and we are playing together, God doesn't care if we build sand castles or play on the monkey bars, he just wants us to be good to everyone and love on people and then to be stoked, cause you don't get recess when you're older unless you're self employed, so be grateful. If we want to be rich or poor, that's our choice. Happy or sad, that's up to us. God is good to give all of this love to us! It pumps me up!

This is like a notebook entry, I just made it a blog by accident. LOL!

Love you all! Thanks for reading my random stoked thought process... It's hard to sleep at night... I wake up with a voracious appetite to accomplish those things cause they all sound so sick! So I write out my goals for that week on my white board and check them off as I do them, then I have all my slight edge decisions for the day to progress me in moving forward and I get to check them off. It's awesome! I love life... I wish I could take credit for that super sick process, I cannot... It's all Payton Parnegg... He's the man. I just do the typing

Uhhhh!

:)

Cantaloupe... The forbidden fruit

I just ate a half a cantaloupe, so wonderful. The seasons are changing and the end of the first quarter of 2012 is here. What did the first quarter do for your new years goals and resolutions?! Or I should rephrase, what did you do for your new years goals or resolutions in this first quarter?

I pondered my query over a bowl of chipotle chicken stew in which I prepared from scratch last night, well... It's funny how when you look at your goals and what you wrote down and all the things you were going to change, you some how end up losing steam and ending up in limbo unsure of whether or not to complete the goals and changes, and some of it is rightfully valid and some you have to factor that you have grown and those things you set out to do, may no longer be in alignment with where you want to be now. As for me...

Well, I entered into some legal stuff, that rocked my world, it's emotional and tests my mettle, I am grateful for the experience, I expanded into 2 other international markets and another venture with acquisitions and I decided to come out of retirement from multilevel marketing and go into a furious push to make some new friends, retire some old friends from their employment and get my income to about $25,000 a week. It can be done in 2012, I know that and the conditions are right. It just requires a great deal of work, so now I am open to helping 6 people make about $2500 a week. That's step one... I haven't emotionally been in this space in a while. I am excited about it and I understand the work ahead of me. Anything in life worth having is worth working or fighting for. As I see it, we are all going to put a good 40 hours a week into something, whether that's fatherhood, fitness, nutrition and wakeboarding (My current 40 hours) Or business or a job... What will your results be!? So that was a huge mental shift for me.

I am emotionally preparing for the worst... This is the part I dreaded for 3 years. I am going to do my best to call everyone I have ever known in my entire life and see if they are at a place in their life to make a good solid 2-3 year push at whatever their dream is, I understand that only maybe 2 out of 10 will actually be in a place where they are even open to looking into it, and even fewer are actually serious enough about their dream or situation to do something about it. So that means I will be calling a great deal of people to find the 6 that want it bad enough to do something for it. Lucky for me I know that I have the way that they can get their dream. I live mine every day.

oooohhhh! 5 years ago I read a book called "Secrets of the millionaire mind." The lady that did my eyebrows gave it to me, that booked changed my relationship with money, I doubled my income that next year, from a whopping $12,000 a year to $28,000. The whole book pitched the seminar, I went a year later to that seminar "The Millionaire Mind Intensive," and that fiscal year earned just over $60,000. They have one here in Salt Lake City April 19-21st! Tickets are $795.00 a person, it's worth it... But I met the CEO of that company through some friends and I now can get anyone in for free! It's so cool! So if you want to go, preregister through this link and you will probably make more money as a result... It worked for me. https://mmi.infusionsoft.com/go/14/mmi26070/

So my age old mantra (which I stole from my trusty friend Payton Parnegg) "NEVER take advice from someone you wouldn't trade places with." Everyone has unsolicited advice to give, I look at where they are as to if I would heed their council, you have unhealthy people giving advice on health, or poor people giving you advice on money, or people that settle in relationships giving you advice on relationships, this life is a journey and everything is a giant work in progress. We are all learning day by day but for the love of Cole Staley please never take advice from someone you wouldn't trade places with!

So much has happened in 3 months, my sister got married, I threw an LDS bachelor party, I went through the temple, overcame my fear of the back flip, learned all the wakeboard tricks that used to scare me, learned to cook 18 dishes and 2 new styles of cuisine, I got more fit, changed clothes sizes, hair style and footwear, pointy shoes are so 2011, time for something new, overcame fear of singing, took the birthday thing far beyond where it used to be, potty trained a puppy and became a loving dog owner, went snowboarding a few times this year, got new beds in the house and dialed the house perfect, fixed an inoperable truck, figured out what car I will buy next, traveled a bit, Helped Halli through her first crush and valentines day, took a trip with Halli, rode horses, shot guns, got into a custody thing with my ex, tweaked eating healthier and cut out popcorn, ice cream and candy bars, (now just need to eliminate cheese, tortilla chips and chocolate milk) I gave in to the twilight series, I visited friends, made new friends, made more money than I ever have in my life while not having a working vehicle, started up a new company, got a calling in church, witnessed a few baptisms of friends, reactivation of others, many epic bro downs, gym sessions and rapping sessions, fell in love 30-40 times, saw growth in so many people around me and grew a lot myself in the process. I got over the whole sense of urgency with getting married, I know who I am and what I am looking for so much more now than I ever have and I am grateful for that and I am in no hurry to move on to the next phase, I am good right where I am at.

Each person I date, meet or attract helps me define a little better what I am looking for in a partner, each girl helps me to be more open, more vulnerable and more communicative, every date gets me a little more prepared for my wife. They say that you attract what you are, so for me each girl is like a mirror and shows me where I am at, how much I have grown and who I am becoming, each girl gives me the opportunity to be the most genuine and vulnerable me, to communicate and express the really me just that much better, to bask in my insecurities and short comings, they all help me be more in touch with me and what I am looking for and where I am going and it's a wonderful phase to be in. I feel like I sculpt my soul every time I let someone in. Why would anyone want to rush that phase of life?! The longer we utilize this phase for what it is intended for and treat the people we date with respect we will end up in a much healthier relationship, every break up allows us a second chance, every good date, every bad date, every set up, this is such a wonderful place to be. I hope that I can become the man that my future wife doesn't want to live without and that every guy that she dates, treats her with respect. Dating is cool :)

On another note... Can you guess the car in the picture?! That's my dream car, but it's more of a goal car. I will buy it when I earn it. Guess what it is! I'll give you a clue, they only made that model in 2007-2008 and it has a 4.4L Supercharged V8 engine in it. :)

Switching gears here...

I believe God communicates with us through experiences first and foremost, then through people, then through words.. Your emotions have an incredible amount to do with how that communication is given and received. ie: "The spirit," "higher self," "intuition" "gut feeling" "subconscious," "Holy ghost," "Your conscience." Call it what you will, the way you feel is like the language which God communicates, it always knows. Your thoughts are like the devil, they doubt, cause fear, second guess, create a ton of negative emotions that make more negative thoughts and create the lousiest cycle.

I learned one thing from all the experiences, and the people this quarter.

You should always feel good emotions... IF you ever feel any bad ones... You are not exercising your faith in the fact that there is a bigger thing here at work and you have no trust in that.  I am such a prideful person sometimes and I constantly learn the same thing over and over and over... I am nothing without my God. EVERY time I do life on my own, I dig myself a hole, ruin something, mess things up, end up feeling empty, unfulfilled, lonely, sad, depressed, down, uncomfortable, lost, like something is missing and then I am faced with forcing a smile and fronting like I am happy, which sometimes I do. But it's no fun being drained all the time and feeling negative emotions. I end up turning to God again and again with the same attitude... Broken, feeling down and alone and the same realization... I am nothing without God. I think my mother said it best, "We try our best and maybe we only are capable of 20% But when we submit our will to God he gives us the other 80%."  So many times I take credit for that 80% or think I am awesome or I have good luck or something and the pride kicks in and then I end up back down again. But the first quarter has taught me this...

Life with God = :)

Life without God = :(

I am nothing without God, that's wild to admit and sure this blog might be preachy but that is the way that I feel and I have had to learn this lesson OVER AND OVER AND OVER again, it's not fun.

For me it is so easy to fall into the trap of not praying or giving God credit or focusing on that, pride is my greatest enemy and I battle it in every moment I breathe. The gauge for me personally to know if I am off track is when I start to feel any form of negative emotion, that is me being prideful and not demonstrating faith in God. It's kind of a cool place to be.

I was talking to a guy tonight that wasn't religious, doesn't believe in God, or any kind of religion. He believes in the law of attraction and positive thinking and karma and he's a good guy, he lives like this and it's amazing to see how richly blessed he is in his life. That's what it's all about! This guy is carefree and KNOWS that no matter what happens, he's going to love every minute of it because it is perfect for him and there is no sense in being down or feeling bad because he has faith that everything happens for a reason and it's not his job to know the reason. It is coming to love the journey and find the joy in it. I love it :)

There are 3 Quarters left in this year...

What will you do?!