I got to lose everything to gain it, I found myself, found my purpose, found what I will do with my life as far as my career, I found the right company to work, I found the perfect girl, well she found me, and she may or may not be my soul mate, ill go day by day, I am leaving the old life behind and blazing ahead in this new one... Giddy, it feels like today... It feels like my stars aligned, it feels like luck is on my side. It feels like karmic retribution, it feels like God is blessing me beyond my wildest dreams and I feel immense peace through out this process. It's time to professionally make the biggest run at life I have ever made in my life. Time to set this world on fire.
Robert Frost said "I took the road less traveled and it made all the difference." I was just faced with that very same decision, and I chose the road less traveled, I decided not to follow the crowd. They say "if you do what you've always done, you'll get what you've always gotten." So as it stands I made some major changes, I have heard a great deal of negative things said, then people whom I thought were friends turn on you and when the smoke settles, you realize you made a good decision and what lies ahead is the future and it looks bright.
Quotes are such powerful teachers. "When someone shows you who they are, believe them." Now as I grow up, I look at partnership a bit differently. I cannot wait till I marry my eternal companion and start making babies, the "why" I have been chasing all this time turns out to be here now. I just had to choose that path, since I have been so indecisive as to what I wanted and who I wanted to become, God made it challenging for me so I would stumble on it. I almost lost my daughter, I almost lost my home, I lost my business, I did lose my income a couple times, I lost all my distributors, I lost my front, facade and ego, I lost myself in the process, I found myself through God, I was blessed with everything I could ever want and I feel peace. :) I am happier than I have ever been, I am on the right path, it's a little scary starting over, but it feels so right.
For over a month I kept asking myself. "Kevin, who do you want to become?" I looked at my surroundings, you become the people around you, the people you spend the most time with. I took a hard look at the lives of everyone and who they were when they thought no one was watching, who they were behind peoples backs, who they were to the people they love and who they were to themselves and I asked myself; Do I want to be like them. Spiritually, emotionally, mentally, physically, financially, socially. I couldn't say that I would want to be that.
So, when I really took a hard look at everything, I realized that I needed to make some big changes, I needed to go against the grain in order to grow once more. At one point in my life I would've said yes to all of that. But it was time to make big changes. No was the answer, They say if you're the most capable person in the room, you need to find a new room, I was searching for a new room, I needed growth, if you're not growing, you're dying, my dreams were nearly dead, I did not think they were even possible on the path I was on, waiting around for something to happen is like slowly dying.
Time will either promote you or expose you, and History has a way of repeating itself. God blessed me with more than i could ever ask for by making the right choice, although it was a hard one, it was worth it. i think its funny how when you align with your desires, live true to who you want to become and put yourself on the path that'll get you closer to your "why" your dreams and your deepest desires, they just show up. :)
The next phase is here... This is YOUR time!
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