This month I am sad to see go by, I have had a hard time parting with Libra month! This has been one of the best October's I have ever had. We can start off October with Halli picking out her puppy, a golden retriever she would grow to call "Max." Followed by Bryan Robert's Birthday! He is a man that has greatly impacted my life more than most people have and I am the man I am today largely because of him. And General Conference for the LDS church was also at the same time. So there was much packed into the first week, I got to go to 3 sessions of conference and one of which I got to go with Tyler Harris and Tyler Hutchinson, it was a proverbial Tyler sandwich. Conference was amazing! Spiritually uplifting and it really put things into perspective, talk about starting Libra Month off right!Next Payton Parnegg and I started our radio show. We had our first broadcast the day after conference, It will be a monthly thing and it went really well. I can't hardly wait till the next one! As far as Media stuff went this month, The Chicago Tribune wants to interview me for the birthday thing in conjunction with a good friend of mine's website, then also The teach Jim show had me on as a guest and I was interviewed for Network Marketing and what not. So this has been a media rich month.
I got to spend some time with Bailee and Halli and go out to eat and have fun with them. I love being an uncle. I have the most adorable niece and nephew. They're so great and it is so wonderful watching them grow up and seeing how smart they are. Bailee is so intelligent it is so crazy to me. She has such a personality!Physically speaking, I have been consistently going to crossfit for 2 months now, I am used to in and getting in the groove of how my form should be and it is getting really fun! I love my workouts and I feel so blessed to be able to go in the mornings. I am seeing different definition and a transformation of my body in a different way than I am used to. My diet has been so much more dialed and I implemented Kangen water this month, when I am alkaline and properly hydrated and eating good, clean food, I feel so good. Sleep schedule was so on point. I played with Melatonin all month long. I had deeper higher quality sleep when I took melatonin and I enjoyed having my sleep schedule completely regulated. Physically this was an incredible month. I also Ran a 10k. I almost committed to running the Las Vegas Ragnar, it was too close to my birthday and I had other plans.
Emotionally this was quite the month! I have felt like crying more this month than ever before. To see where I am in comparison to 25, 24, 23, 22 or 17. I am astonished at who I am and how I think and what goes on in my inner workings and I feel like crying because I am so overwhelmed with love and gratitude to all the people that shared a little of their story with me and who they are and how much I have grow from those around me that has molded me into who I am today. So many people collectively have saved me. I am so blessed to be alive today. On my birthday I felt so much love from so many people, some people sent me the nicest, most kind texts, voicemails, calls and facebook posts. I felt so loved and I could not believe it was real. I was overwhelmed. 26 is finally here. This month on a very personal, internal emotional level was unexplainable. Robert Lopez who is kind of an emotional and spiritual mentor of mine really helped me get past some self imposed emotional limitations that I had and he opened me up to some major growth. I feel like my heart is a muscle and I was stopping the recovery process from its last work out. Well, I was able to let so much go, be open to so much more and grow a great deal. This month was like emotional spring cleaning and gearing up for the capacity to love and accept others and become the man I was destined to be at 26.
Financially I cannot believe I am here. The money is getting crazier every week! I am loving it and being so blown away by it and there are some major things in the works that are coming up here in the next couple of months that will add to that that will be cool. But financially I grew a great deal in the ability to buy myself stuff. for my birthday I got myself a bed!!! I have been needing one for like 25 years! haha
Spiritually has had the most growth I would say, getting ready to receive the Melchizedek priesthood has been a challenge, I swear temptation comes out of nowhere when you least expect it and you end up going head to head with it and you do your best. I love that God cares about us so much to forgive us of whatever we do wrong to prepare us for the next steps that he has for us. I know it has been a little over 2 years since I have become LDS and I am just now receiving the priesthood but it wasn't time back then. That advancement took place two days after my birthday, as I write this right now I cannot even begin to describe the peaceful feelings that I feel and the responsibility at my feet with this higher level of accountability. I feel so honored to be here at this moment holding this responsibility. I am grateful and cannot believe I have come this far! I still have temptations and I still mess up and make wrong choices but that's why I love prayer and forgiveness :) On another spiritual note, Robert Lopez has been working with me more closely and is helping me develop my spiritual gifts and ability with people and being able to love more, and to grow past some of my own limitations which has been tremendous.
So Birthday #1 started Monday - Wednesday, It was Sunday night and I was restless and felt like leaving town. I decided to leave for Boulder City with my friend KC that next morning to spend a few days at "Pirates Cove." Which is an all inclusive mansion of a multi millionaire network marketer (who shared the same birthday as me I might add) from another company that took a massive mansion and pirate themed the place and put water slides and rope swings and a really high 45 foot mast to dive off of. This place had like 4 huge garages loaded with cars, boats, toys, trucks etc... 25 themed suites 35 bathrooms 5 kitchens, it was nuts. There were people that had flown in from all over and a soft serve ice cream machine by the pool, it was beautiful. I escaped there till Wednesday and enjoyed myself and made friends with everyone. Worked out in their private gym, did a little kickboxing as well. My friend Zach Wall was down at Lake Mead that weekend and so we met him at the dock and went wakeboarding one final time to say goodbye to the season properly.
On the way down to Pirates Cove I got to stop at the master distributor of another company's house and see her estate. She had one of the biggest libraries I have seen in a person's home. It was huge! On the way home we stopped off in Vegas, had lunch at Chipotle and then grabbed a new pair of pointy shoes from my favorite shoe store :) I got home 30 minutes before midnight (the time I was actually born around between the 19th and 20th) and at exactly midnight, Emily and Sterling came over and wished me a happy birthday and we hung out! It was awesome! It made me so happy!
Thursday (Birthday #2) Halli and I went and got a pamper day! Manicure, Pedicure, Facial, Eyebrow Wax and we both got our hair cut, then we got lunch at Chipotle then went shopping for clothes. It was a great day! I bought myself a bookshelf and my bed that day! It was such a wonderful day, until we found out "Max" (Halli's puppy that would get to leave his mommy the next day) had to be put down that day. Halli was devastated and it put a damper on the day. So we got dinner at Chipotle and then I got a full body massage + Energy work, it was so amazing! Then I did a RevvNRG meeting at my friend's Brian and Pam Robinson's house and they gave me a black on black hat for when my head explodes that was custom made that said "KG' on the front. It meant a lot to me that they'd go out of their way for me like that!
Friday (Birthday #3) was the one that meant the most! It was my intimate circle of friends! I started the day out alone, I got to enjoy a day where I did what I love to do and then I went and bought all my bedding, had lunch at chipotle and went shopping and got some decorations for the house, a couple pairs of sunglasses, went BMW shopping and looked at some wedding rings, then I went to Mandy and Bryan's house and I had a great party there with my favorite treats, some great people and some cool gifts and I got to enjoy their company and we went paintballing! it was so much fun!!!
Saturday (Birthday #4) This was fun! I enjoyed the first night in my bed! so amazing! and I had a great action packed day bright and early going Paintballing outside with my brother Danny and roommate Tyler. We went in the woods in Provo canyon and got our male bonding on! it was nice! I got home, took a shower, hit the gym really hard, meditated and then met my parents for dinner at chipotle, we talked about my life and I really got to connect with them, it was amazing spending that quality of time with them. I have great parents!
I always said that 26 would be the year, I found old journals that talked about 26. I am set to be a millionaire at 26, I have an estate plan drawn up from when I was 9 that is set for 26, marriage was set for 26, I feel ready for her. I want to go through the temple before I am ready for her. I need to be operating at that level before God puts her in my life. A woman's heart should be so deeply rooted in God I should have to seek him to find her. It is about to begin, the heavy lifting of a massive year long push to accomplish all those things. The dance show we were going to do in November just got postponed and I went and learned all the dances and overcame my fears of that. Singing has progressed and moved right along, that's no longer an issue. I have played guitar more this month than ever, I rap a lot less. I got myself waxed, that was wild! I like the way it feels though.
Being a dad has been something that has become more and more the day to day task that I look forward to. I am on the PTA and I am a classroom volunteer and we had Halli's Halloween party and so I coordinated with some of the classroom moms to put together this fun party for the kids, they loved it and we brought all these treats and had a Halloween costume fashion show on an orange carpet. It was so fun! Halli loved that I was there. I dressed up like a monkey! That was a blast! That night Bryan and Mandy had a big Halloween party up at their house so we went to that. It was fun. Halli has gotten on such a routine this month, she is asleep by 9 most nights, she gets up at the same time every day, she eats the right amount of calories and foods, she is stimulated pretty well and we still find time to go to the library and do the things we normally do, there was a major decline in daddy daughter dates this month. I made it a great deal more about me this month. But now that libra month is over and done with it's onward ever onward.I learned a couple things this month.
1. People are nothing more than mirrors. When we compliment people, it's almost like we are complimenting ourselves on what we like about ourselves, if there is something about someone that we don't like, it usually means that there is something about ourselves we don't like. everyone is supposed to teach us something. We have to ask ourselves "What does else could this mean?" And find positive meanings for everything. So like when someone makes us mad and we are upset at them, we stop, pause and ask ourselves, why am I so mad? and maybe I need to learn patience or forgiveness or something. But it is a great way to stop and just feel peace.
2. There is nothing wrong with making it about you sometimes. We all gotta get ours, taking an hour a day to yourself to fill up your own cup can allow you to be present in all the other things that you do, it's amazing what a little "Me time" can do. It's selfish to not take time for yourself. Otherwise it leaves you showing up drained when it's time to be a parent, a son or daughter, a friend, at work, etc. You gotta take care of yourself so you can take care of others!
3. Being Self Conscious is Selfish. When we focus on ourselves, we are being "self conscious." Conscious of selves. When we worry how we are, how our actions affect other people and what people think of us, it inhibits us from doing what we want to do and say what we want to say and it completely affects our self esteem and self image over time, making us question our value. It's a big thing. So you have to have a defense for it. So instead of paying so much attention to ourselves it makes more sense to pay attention to others. So go on the offense. When you get self conscious, let that be a trigger that makes you initiate a conversation and connection with someone else. Make their day by getting out of your own way and asking them how THEY are doing, find out about THEIR life, what THEY'RE into, what lights THEM up and what makes THEM who THEY are. Don't talk about you, get to know about THEM, people love to answer questions about THEMSELVES and if you are genuinely listening and taking the time to understand them and you're enthusiastic about what THEY'RE saying and asking more questions, THEY will feel important, understood, and THEY will be smiling and will like you. The whole time it'd never have even been about you, and they won't know much about you, other than you're cool and you made THEIR day and THEY like you. It's great from the introvert because they prefer to listen than to talk, so they enthusiastically ask questions and then listen. It's awesome! So the bullet pointed absolute truths I have learned in my life that this is derived from and should give you peace of mind to follow as a guideline would be:
-The best defense is a good offense.
-The person that asks questions is in control of the conversation
-People's favorite subject are themselves.
-You have two ears and one mouth, be proportionate.
-Enthusiasm is contagious at least 50%
-Smiles are contagious
Don't be selfish, take the focus off yourself, go out and love on some people. I heard an Epic quote by an Epic individual that said: "If you stop thinking about yourself, and love on some people, all with a sense of urgency, you'll probably lose yourself in the process and find yourself along the way." There you have it.
November will be BIG! Thank you for reading. Feel free to post a link on your page if this moves you at all.
