February has been quite a month already!!! It's the 5th!

Today was such a great day! It's time to get ready to go to California tomorrow. I have so much to wrap up here in Utah. The start of my 60 day transformation has begun, I weigh 170.5lbs, and I am at 13% bodyfat. My goal is to get to 178lbs with 8% body fat. I did a weigh in video, check it out! Time for clean eating and crazy work outs, tons of online classes to try and wrap up real estate school, plenty of reading, I am reading the greatest and most inspiring book right now, it moves me on every level of my being, so many goals!!! I am meeting so many cool new people, I have celebrated some of the greatest birthdays this month so far, so much growth! In ALL aspects, so many cool realizations!!! SOOOO much Guitar! I am in love with that instrument! I am not good yet but I love it soooooo much, I did a video of rapping with guitar, it's weird, kinda my new thing check it out if you want to!!! Give me some feedback, I am a little insecure about the guitar. I love the rapping though. :)

These next few weeks are very important, some major life decisions are in process of being made and my goals are being realized rapidly, making more money than I have ever made in my life is merely months away! THAT to me is exciting! Getting more ripped is also on the docket and so fun to do everyday! There is spiritually ripped, emotionally and mentally ripped, financially and socially ripped, I am redefining myself daily in my notebook and calibrating things more finely and reassessing my performance nightly, I am becoming my best self with God's help. Soon I will start dating, I want to be a boyfriend sometime here in the near future. I feel like I am ready for that step, I know what I deserve and what I will give and so my sights are set high, my bar is set high, I will treat others the way I want to be treated in all aspects of life and do my best to love others more, and be the guy that my future girl deserves.

I will travel, it's time to take some fun trips with Halli, we have memories to make before a step mom comes into our picture! We have more to do every day. There's just enough time in the day for all the important things that we get to do. Like nap time! That was cute. Priorities are in the right places. The present moment is perfect, It is such a gift to be living right here, right now, we have so much to be grateful for, I am especially grateful for the examples in my life, I learn so much every day by observing and asking questions. I am so grateful for my eyesight, and my life, my health, my family and friendships, being LDS, and being able to experience things as I experience them, I love who I am and where things are, I am so grateful that I get to breathe it all in, this life is beautiful. :D

2013!!!

Wow! What amazing holiday festivities, it is December 27th and I still have a tree with presents to be opened, I am learning to put myself first. So much to do :)

This picture means so much to me, It needed a blog trying to describe what it means to me. :)

I love my bed, every night I get into bed, I think of the small act of putting myself first. On my 26th birthday I decided to "treat myself" and buying myself a bed, that was a big moment for me! Acting in faith, I got an amazing bed connection and I can get anyone the greatest deal on beds $4,000 beds for like $600! I am overwhelmed with gratitude for that, I love it. When I see my bed I smile because it symbolizes my sacred place of rest, my sister's kindness with my "Libra Pillow" and my "God Pillow" and of course the fact that I took action towards feeling like I deserve to buy myself something. So my bed, which is my sacred place, is always made, "how are you going to make a million dollars if you can't even make your bed?!" "How you do anything is how you do EVERYTHING." Then my tribute to astrology and to God (by way of pillows) and God always comes first in that. Then a selection of the books I need to read to prepare me for the transition at the first of the year and my 2013 structured book list according to my plan. Then my right leg has a cute reminder that I need to pray. When I see it, I pray and express gratitude for my life, it's awesome! and I am in my undies on my bed notebooking in that picture which makes me smile huge. I have my iPad, my Scriptures, as a man thinketh & volume 2, "Standing for Something" and an audiobook playing on my iPod, you should get a copy of that book "Standing for Something!" It'll change your life! God is heavily involved in this entire notebook session and it was the perfect way to spend my cold December night :)

I feel abundant, I feel so much love and joy and gratitude for my life. I am 27, I am alive, I am healthy, I am LDS, I found it! hahaha! I feel peace throughout every day, that void of lonely and empty feelings was filled with God, I love being LDS, that has been an incredible journey and I don't know who I would be without that. I reflect on my year and what I have to be grateful for and THAT is what stands out to me more than family, more than friends, more than success, material things, it's being LDS... God is so good to me, 3.5 years ago I made a decision to walk a higher path, to strive to be better, to progress and to live extraordinary and to realize my potential I became LDS, I was looking, I was missing something and THAT was it, it took me a year and a half to be open to it, I had a completely warped view on it, but I eventually found it, or it found me I should say. Since then I learned that I am not alone. This year there have been so many amazing lessons I have learned through all of that. If you're not LDS, just disregard anything pertaining to it. I don't want to offend you, but I don't want to censor myself, there are many rivers to one ocean I am just gushing with gratitude for the path I found. :) It really has impacted my year more than anything and everything put together. I wouldn't have made it this year without it.

All of these things that I have learned this year were through people's examples, conversations, books, but all through experiences. Whew, this was a wild and heavy year!

This year, 2012... I learned and truly know in my heart of hearts all these things:

I learned that I am more than enough. I believe that with my whole soul.

I learned how to be vulnerable, that is where Joy and Happiness are found, what makes me vulnerable is what makes me beautiful.

I learned how to receive, I never knew how that worked before and I was awful at that, it's changed my life.

I learned that God truly loves me, is VERY real and that if you ask him anything sincerely, he will answer you EVERY time if you are open to receiving it. That was a hard lesson to learn, hehe I am prideful and stubborn sometimes. :)

I learned that I am NOTHING without God, literally nothing. I am capable of maybe 2% in this life at my best. God brings the other 98% and we call that grace, and through the atonement that's possible.

I learned how to be consistent with just about every aspect of my life.

I learned that I am worthy of the deepest love and I believe that with my whole soul

I learned that I deserve my eternal companion and soul mate, I never believed that before.

I learned how to love deeper than I ever thought I was capable of

I learned to forgive, to truly forgive

I learned how to ask forgiveness. This was so hard!

I learned to be the bigger person. This was also VERY difficult

I learned to let go.  95% of what we worry about never happens, the 5% that does, isn't as bad as we thought it would be and then "Everything happens for a reason."

I learned how to ask God for the lesson he is teaching me through people and situations, patterns and experiences

I learned how to sing without being self conscious.

I learned how to play lead guitar,

I learned to love and be grateful for my insecurities, they make me happy :) I think they make me cute!

I learned to have faith in God's timing

I learned to just be at peace because what is supposed to happen will happen, and where I am supposed to be.. I AM.

I learned to love every part of who I am because of who I am.

I learned God doesn't make mistakes, to not like something/hate something/someone is blasphemous, he created everything perfectly imperfect. Who am I to say I don't like something? I have been given so much! Eyesight alone is more than I could ever ask for and I am blessed to have it, let alone my physical health/

I learned not to settle in any aspect of my life.

I learned faith. To truly believe with my whole soul and to act on it. Faith comes in the action.

I learned a great deal about law and legal proceedings.

and I learned how to communicate my feelings on a much deeper level, for that I am forever grateful.

I feel like 2012 was the prep year for 2013.

This year was one of the hardest years that I have ever had in my life, I am truly grateful for all the struggle that I have faced. I figured out who I am and what I am supposed to be doing for the next 30-40 years. I am excited to move forward on that plan, I just started school and I am learning with voracity what I need to learn to go into the next phase of this life. It's time to stabilize my life and pour gas on the fire. This year looks so promising. I feel like the boy that cried wolf in love. I would love to have love, I am super idealistic, a hopeless romantic that gives a great deal, I have been single for almost 5 years, I haven't found someone that can receive me fully, I have let all of that go, I am no longer looking at all. I haven't the time for that. In these past 6 years I have grown so close to my daughter and we have a dynamic relationship, I am forever grateful to God for putting her in my life. It's like having a daughter, a best friend, a travel buddy, a business partner, a mom, a confidant, she holds me accountable, helps me grow and communicate better, she helps me to respect people on a whole different level and she has taught me more than half of the lessons I have listed above through her example and her advice. I am blessed beyond belief to have her in my life. Who needs a girlfriend when you have so much emotional love and support from your own flesh and blood. I love her :) She is patient with me. Hahahaha! I am super intense sometimes! Hahaha! Watching her trials and challenges in life are beautiful, her mom is awesome! I love seeing the dynamic and perspective that comes with that. I am so blessed to have been married before, I look back on that and I am grateful for the man that my ex wife has helped me to become, she continues to help me grow and I love her so much for that. She is an example to me of so many things. :) Halli's life is richly blessed with perspective to have both parents and the families that accompany that. To think, her mom and I will both remarry some time and she will have 4 different families. That is really cool! What a blessed life that is. I hope I can help her life be harmonious and provide her with support, perspective and stability to be there for her through her trials in her life. She's already so strong and smart and intuitively developed for 8 years old. I will continue to study people with prolific intensity so I can best assist her to grow in this life. That's what it's all for. :)

2013 is the quantum leap year, from an outside perspective it will look like THIS WAS THE YEAR 2013, but this is what 5 years of hard work has led up to, the work is compounding. This is THE year. Maybe God says it's time and I meet my eternal companion and end up married, maybe not. Either way, I will not allow myself to be distracted by that this year. There is too much at stake with these next few months and I don't need to be distracted like that, if it happens, it happens, I won't go looking for it. :) 2013 is all about focus. I get to finish real estate school fast, jump in to it full time, get out of my house and find a place to rent or an investment home to live in while I create my net worth, increase my income streams dramatically, tackle the stock market and diversify. Maybe settle down and get married, start BYU in the fall, go get an education, ultimately leading to an MBA and another income stream. Read at least 24 books, listen to AT LEAST 24 audiobooks, get ridiculously proficient on guitar, singing and rapping, progress at fitness through Crossfit, Gold's Gym, and maybe some yoga, Result... Get so ripped. I will strive to treat everyone that I meet as though I am meeting Christ, I will set a good example for the people around me, I will be the best father, son, brother, uncle, cousin, business partner and friend anyone could ever ask for. I will Love with all of my heart, mind, might, strength and soul all of the time, permeating with gratitude for even the littlest things, being transparent and vulnerable, giving all praise to God for helping me become this man, taking no credit... constantly re-calibrating all while travelling all over the world meeting new people and making lasting memories.

THIS IS THE YEAR...

It has to start somewhere... it has to start some time....

What better place than here...  What better time than now...


I have a secret weapon in this life... It's my small and very limited understanding of God's love.
I have a path and a set out structure of things to learn... It's called being LDS
I have a cheat code to this life... It's called Gratitude
I have a blue print to make the year happen... It's called my notebook

I have 3 vehicles to use to accomplish this... They are RevvNRG, Real Estate and BYU.
I have support... They are people that love me because I chose to let them in vulnerably and they see me.
I have a very small and limited understanding of the patterns in front of me and how things work... It has to do with your birthday. :)
I am Kevin Goldberg, I am a son of God... I know who I am, where I am going, and why I am here...

Uhhh!!!

:-D

27... Time to make better choices

Well,

That is the word... Well... I would like to feel that way... 

I received the birthday present of a 101 degree fever, a stuffy nose and much congestion, I thought I was immune to sickness, I was wrong, dead wrong. However, I have made the most of it. I do not feel well.

I cancelled most of my plans for my birthday, I toughed it through some, all in all it was like a "3" birthday on the actual day to day on a 1-10 scale, (all pessimism aside) I truly enjoy the emails, I can't wait to make that book. I think I cried on just about every one. That was a really nice thing that meant a lot to me. Going to Boise was amazing, family stuff was amazing, I feel so much love in my life. I am a very blessed man to have such great people in my life... Okay, not gonna lie... It was so overwhelming, at one point I silenced my phone and physically locked it in another room because it was blowing up and I couldn't handle it. I was sick and did not feel good. LoL! Not exactly the ideal way to spend a birthday. I wanted to go to Famous Daves for my birthday, however, I could not taste a thing so that would be a colossal waste of good BBQ. To top it off, the mosquitoes are honestly breeding in my house, I kill like 30-50 a day... This doesn't make for the best Birthday ever. 

On the largest plus side, I totally may have just set the Guinness book of world records for the most epic chicken noodle soup ever created in a kitchen, I need to look in to that. I also figured out my next step in life and what I am going to do with myself in this future. It's time for another house, time for more money, time to do more real estate, time to get an MBA, time to get married to the woman God has for me, time to start my family and time to get more ripped, 27 is looking real good. This is the year of stepping up and taking control of my life in those aspects. I am blessed :) Time to make better choices...

So I have no idea where to begin to thank you all for your kindness towards me, for your voicemails, your calls, your texts, your voxers, your facebook posts, your facebook messages, your emails, your prayers, your love and your friendships, I have no idea how to reply to that. There were well over 200 just on facebook, I wish you could have witnessed my text message inbox. I didn't quite make the thousands for birthday wishes this year but there were a few hundred. It was quite overwhelming. 

So thank you for making my birthday awesome, without you all this year, my birthday would have been the loneliness of me laying in my dark house alone, being sick, not feeling well and not feeling loved, but instead I was overwhelmed by your love and kindness. 

Happy 27th Birthday to me. :) 

Thank you for being my firends. God loves me, I know that because I have you all as friends. 

What I really want as a Birthday Gift

Hey All!!!

My birthday is October 19th or 20th, I'm not really sure, sad that the birthday guy doesn't know his own birthday, maybe it's time for a new identity. I am 27 this week and as I look back on my life, there are so many of you that have impacted me through your examples, the things you say, the things we have done together, we have so many wonderful memories, funny stories and cool things that we have accomplished together, whether it was once in passing, or through Facebook or maybe we were close once.

So for my birthday this year, (inspired by TJ & Sarah Hayes) I would love more than anything if as a gift you would send me an email to: KevinGoldberg10@gmail.com
That tells the story, memory, or interaction that we have had, how I have maybe impacted you, a memory, send me some love, I would love so much to print them all, put them in a book and feel of your love whenever I am having a down day or I need to draw from your inspiration, I can pick up my book and read through it. Your small act of kindness for my birthday will truly change my life. Then tell everyone you know that knows me, to do the same thing, share and post a link to this blog, make it big. I don't ask for much usually. This is me asking.

If I could have any gift for my 27th Birthday. THAT would be it, it'd mean so much to me, that letter makes it into immortality and I can keep it forever, I am a sentimental guy.

Thank you in advance for taking a half hour out of your year to add so much meaning to my life on such a special day for me by giving me a gift that truly keeps on giving.

-Kevin

Ps: KevinGoldberg10@gmail.com

My Birthday is almost here!!!

Happy Birthday to me!!!

I am going to be 27! Whew... I thought I would be married by now, crazy how things work, right? I am NOT married, not even dating anyone, just single and down to be set up and open to whatever God has for me.


I trail back to 8 years old when I used to dream about when I would be 26.

I thought I would be married to an incredible woman, a woman that "gets it," that loves God with passion, faith and conviction, with an amazing family that loves God as much and lives it, people I would trade places with, she has an incredible relationship with her father & mother, she is confident, she knows who she is, commands respect, tremendous self worth, is wise and possesses vision for God, Life, Family, and Money, she is constantly learning, progressing and growing in all areas, she loves unconditionally, she knows how to receive and how to ask, she is kind, humble, modest, empathetic, charismatic, thoughtful, bold, courageous, simple, intelligent, selfless, frugal, spontaneous, old fashioned, romantic, cheesy, open, expressive, communicative, social, practical, passionate, forgiving, intuitive, perceptive, goal driven, organized, she's easy to please, has an amazing sense of humor, she is laid back, gorgeous, fit, she has Mormon eyes, they dazzle, she has the most adorable smile, and she is always using it, she's honestly like the prettiest girl I have ever met in my life, fitness is important to her, she is beautiful... Let me clarify...

Who she is + her looks + her birthday  X  her spiritual strength = Beautiful. :)

She isn't just beautiful, she's the most beautiful girl I have ever known, she is pure, she is my girl, she sees me for who I am, accepts my faults, loves me for me, helps me to grow and improve and become better, she is attracted to me spiritually, emotionally, mentally, and physically. This girl is so affectionate, playful and she has respect, for herself, for me, for others, she is cuddly she holds my hand, she wants to be a mom and she may or may not have dimples.

I would be successful as a husband, as a father, starting his family, with at least 3 kids, no more than 15. I would be a multi-millionaire, with an 8 figure net worth, and a large diversified investment portfolio and over 150 cash-flowing assets and as far as in business, I would have a few businesses that ran themselves with only a couple hours of work a week, I will put all my time into doing humanitarian work and travelling the globe with my family and friends, helping people and speaking to large audiences all over the world, writing best selling books, and being a famous musician and rapper, doing shows and having a TV show, all while making memories with my friends and family.

In the material world at 7 years old I was dreaming that at 26 I was building a big house with a cul-de-sac with my friends and family all living on the same street, and I would have such a long driveway you would have to ride 4 wheelers to get the mail, some of the features would include a race track, a very big swimming pool, tons of acres of land, a massive garden, a beautiful guest house with the most amazing beds, an amazing patio with grills and smokers for wonderful BBQ's, a recording studio, a steam room in the master, an amazing private balcony with spectacular view, fireplace in the master, a heated driveway facing south, and no one around for at least a half mile.

Wild how 26 truly played out, nothing like my former 8 year old self may have anticipated it would be.

This has been a year of tremendous personal growth, the building up of my self worth, the demolishing of my incessant facade, the letting go of the front I may or may not put up, learning how to receive, learning how to ask, the concept of truly letting people in, the understanding of my emotions, finally recognizing, acknowledging and accepting my strengths, and weaknesses, The building of my confidence in myself and the letting go of my fear of singing and dancing. I learned to love, I learned to love myself, I learned to let go, I learned to love myself through self-consciousness and to calm down, to be still, to be deserving of happiness, I learned that I am enough, that I like who I am, and that I do not have to do life alone or feel lonely, I have myself, but most important lesson I learned was that I am nothing without God, I have God and that is the best place to put my trust and THAT was the single most defining lesson this year.

26 will be fondly remembered, this year queued me up for what I thought 26 would be. I had to become the man that I needed to be, in order to attain these desires. This was the pregame warm up, 27 will be that year but I have enjoyed every minute of this journey so far, the good, the bad, even the ugly, I am grateful I am alive, I am moving the checkers forward, I am healthy and happy, I am sure life could be better, I am sure life could be worse, but it's really beautiful no matter how you look at it.

#Grateful

Looking Forward

I have this desire to do more, to be more and have more. It is a remarkable feeling that won't seem to go away.

I am actively pursuing my dream with all the voracity I contain as a 26 year old man, I am coming into 27 rather quickly and I think to myself, "it is time to get married. You're at the age and it is the next step in life, maybe even before financial and material prosperity, yeah, let's get on that."

So this is my proclamation to the world, my "putting it out there," my APB so to speak, it is October 8th, 2012, less than 2 weeks till 27, and I am ready for "the one."

This is the part where those of you that read this, put some thought into "her" for me, market me, set me up, find her for me, I shall place a bounty on her head. As to what that bounty is, why I am still determining it myself.

I want to fall madly in love, forever, I can hardly fathom what it'll be like having her in my life, I do believe though that the time is now. When and
Where will we meet is what shall haunt my thought processes, I shall go to God in prayer on this one, I do know the main criteria, she has to be between 24-29 years of age, strong LDS that "gets it," and lives the gospel with her whole soul, she's also gorgeous, fit, on my level and has a great family. dimples would be an amazing plus. :)

Hope you have a good week. :)

Set me up, 801-529-3645

Friday Night Lights

Tonight was so sick!!!

Uhhh!!!

First, i spent some super quality time with the love of my life and my best friend Halli, ah I love my daughter, she completes me. She sings the cutest songs ever, it's adorable, I tried recording her today, that's the great challenge, she catches me and stops singing, it's like filming a wild animal hahahaha!!! :) she is the best, we had an epic event in her life that brought us way closer together, it was a good thing. I love her not only for who she is, but for who I am when I am with her.

Next, I got to grow closer to one of my best friends, the man that brought me into my career and to the Lds church, next I got to see the man that baptized me peel out in an M5, so sick! Spiritually I needed a hug from him today, funny how God works, it's been a rough few days, I needed that :)

Then I got to go up into God's great mountains to the top of a peak and celebrate a special birthday with one of my best friends and enjoy a full moon and a good conversation, next I learned so many valuable lessons about myself from one of my best friends while I hiked all through text, I ate clean all day and drank lots of water, I am sore all over and I stretched, it's a hydrate and recover day.

Now I think I will watch braveheart and then play guitar and sing till my fingers hurt and I can't talk tomorrow, I have some learning to do!!!

I am sitting in my car in front of my parents house reminiscing about my life, I just ran into my old Beemer, the guy I sold it to improved it, babies it and it has only had like 5,000 miles put on it, he offered me what I sold it for and it's a way better car now, that was cool, I have been dealing with my ex wife lately, that's been really fun, I have learned so many lessons and continue to grow tremendously through her, I am so grateful for that, it's hard on me sometimes but I am blessed to have that. :) my life is awesome, God is so good to me, I feel so comfortable in this moment, windows down, looking at my old surroundings and thinking about life with my family living in Layton, pre networking, pre LDS, it's a trip, here i am with my hoodie on, in comfy jeans, with a Tahiti, comfy shoes and a smile on my face, it's hoodie weather, my hair is in my favorite style short and sweet and not much maintenance required, and the season is changing. Autumn is here :) its libra month. My favorite self reflection marathon. Time to grow rapidly. 26 is almost done. This is better than new years. New goals, big decisions to make, the becoming of an adult, I am making all the life altering choices right now. Life is at that point, I'd love input in these by a significant other, but it isn't the time or place I suppose, I am open and growing everyday I am becoming the best Kevin Goldberg I can be.

I am ramping up to make a few choice phone calls to a few people to find the people we run with for the rest of our lives, it's time. I have a few months of busy up ahead. Cranking things up, becoming more hypercritical of myself and going into beast mode on every area of my life. Time to be what I wanted to be when I grew up.

I am growing up, 26 was "my year" since I was the littlest boy. It's almost over... I have done a lot of big boy things this year. 27 will be the first year of being who I wanted to be when I grew up. I played around long enough. This was my limit many years ago.

Uhhh!


More to come, stay tuned :) I love you all, thanks for taking time to read this, repost it and share with your friends, I am grateful for your example in my life :)

-K