Looking Forward

I have this desire to do more, to be more and have more. It is a remarkable feeling that won't seem to go away.

I am actively pursuing my dream with all the voracity I contain as a 26 year old man, I am coming into 27 rather quickly and I think to myself, "it is time to get married. You're at the age and it is the next step in life, maybe even before financial and material prosperity, yeah, let's get on that."

So this is my proclamation to the world, my "putting it out there," my APB so to speak, it is October 8th, 2012, less than 2 weeks till 27, and I am ready for "the one."

This is the part where those of you that read this, put some thought into "her" for me, market me, set me up, find her for me, I shall place a bounty on her head. As to what that bounty is, why I am still determining it myself.

I want to fall madly in love, forever, I can hardly fathom what it'll be like having her in my life, I do believe though that the time is now. When and
Where will we meet is what shall haunt my thought processes, I shall go to God in prayer on this one, I do know the main criteria, she has to be between 24-29 years of age, strong LDS that "gets it," and lives the gospel with her whole soul, she's also gorgeous, fit, on my level and has a great family. dimples would be an amazing plus. :)

Hope you have a good week. :)

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Friday Night Lights

Tonight was so sick!!!

Uhhh!!!

First, i spent some super quality time with the love of my life and my best friend Halli, ah I love my daughter, she completes me. She sings the cutest songs ever, it's adorable, I tried recording her today, that's the great challenge, she catches me and stops singing, it's like filming a wild animal hahahaha!!! :) she is the best, we had an epic event in her life that brought us way closer together, it was a good thing. I love her not only for who she is, but for who I am when I am with her.

Next, I got to grow closer to one of my best friends, the man that brought me into my career and to the Lds church, next I got to see the man that baptized me peel out in an M5, so sick! Spiritually I needed a hug from him today, funny how God works, it's been a rough few days, I needed that :)

Then I got to go up into God's great mountains to the top of a peak and celebrate a special birthday with one of my best friends and enjoy a full moon and a good conversation, next I learned so many valuable lessons about myself from one of my best friends while I hiked all through text, I ate clean all day and drank lots of water, I am sore all over and I stretched, it's a hydrate and recover day.

Now I think I will watch braveheart and then play guitar and sing till my fingers hurt and I can't talk tomorrow, I have some learning to do!!!

I am sitting in my car in front of my parents house reminiscing about my life, I just ran into my old Beemer, the guy I sold it to improved it, babies it and it has only had like 5,000 miles put on it, he offered me what I sold it for and it's a way better car now, that was cool, I have been dealing with my ex wife lately, that's been really fun, I have learned so many lessons and continue to grow tremendously through her, I am so grateful for that, it's hard on me sometimes but I am blessed to have that. :) my life is awesome, God is so good to me, I feel so comfortable in this moment, windows down, looking at my old surroundings and thinking about life with my family living in Layton, pre networking, pre LDS, it's a trip, here i am with my hoodie on, in comfy jeans, with a Tahiti, comfy shoes and a smile on my face, it's hoodie weather, my hair is in my favorite style short and sweet and not much maintenance required, and the season is changing. Autumn is here :) its libra month. My favorite self reflection marathon. Time to grow rapidly. 26 is almost done. This is better than new years. New goals, big decisions to make, the becoming of an adult, I am making all the life altering choices right now. Life is at that point, I'd love input in these by a significant other, but it isn't the time or place I suppose, I am open and growing everyday I am becoming the best Kevin Goldberg I can be.

I am ramping up to make a few choice phone calls to a few people to find the people we run with for the rest of our lives, it's time. I have a few months of busy up ahead. Cranking things up, becoming more hypercritical of myself and going into beast mode on every area of my life. Time to be what I wanted to be when I grew up.

I am growing up, 26 was "my year" since I was the littlest boy. It's almost over... I have done a lot of big boy things this year. 27 will be the first year of being who I wanted to be when I grew up. I played around long enough. This was my limit many years ago.

Uhhh!


More to come, stay tuned :) I love you all, thanks for taking time to read this, repost it and share with your friends, I am grateful for your example in my life :)

-K

Boy Do I Love Aries Month

Do you ever get so excited for the next day that you can't go to sleep till like 3am and then you're up at 7 just stoked out of your mind that you get to lift heavy things, run around till you almost puke and then go home and eat plants and animals in your kitchen while you stare lovingly into your notebook and ponder on how many check marks your whiteboard will have on it by the end of the day?

That has been these last few days. This world is so crazy to me, the patterns in everything are incredible and I marvel at it. IT'S NETWORKING SEASON!!! Time to get super fit, up strength and endurance, dial in the wakeboard moves,  learn those last 2 perfect, 10,000 movements before the season has ended, go straight paleo for summer, replace all bad foods for good foods, have fun, learn more guitar songs, Jam with Payton, plan 3 or 4 trips, teach my puppy to not bite, work my business hard for 90 days, help a lot of people make some serious money, find my 6 new best friends in the process, dial the financial fitness together, end legal stuff, invest, and celebrate a few birthdays along the way, with God in the center of everything and while smiling, feeling peace and love and gratitude the entire time. This sounds like it's going to be a good April.

I love aries month, I have some of the most amazing people in my life that are aries. They have the biggest hearts and just give and give and give. They're sensitive but rarely show people openly, they just bite their tongue or internalize it and smile through their tears when they're really hurt and smile and kinda say they'll be okay, while they're breaking on the inside, and then they magically flip a switch, which I'll never understand and in that moment they're just good, and completely fine. It's a passionate love affair that they have with this life, I love them, they're so competetive and strong and they hate losing, I love telling an aries that they can't do something. They like say the funniest things internally about me and then they have to prove themselves and it cracks me up but it's so fun. They're awesome. Such good guys and girls both! I always thought I'd marry an Aries or an Aquarius, it just has to be the right one. I haven't the time to pay attention to dating this month, too much on the agenda for the month... Gonna get silly ripped, dragonfly tan lines, healthy, fit, abundant, happy and grateful, God is so good and faith is such a cool thing, I can feel so much love from God, it's so sick! He totally blesses us for being good. We are on this giant playground called life and we are playing together, God doesn't care if we build sand castles or play on the monkey bars, he just wants us to be good to everyone and love on people and then to be stoked, cause you don't get recess when you're older unless you're self employed, so be grateful. If we want to be rich or poor, that's our choice. Happy or sad, that's up to us. God is good to give all of this love to us! It pumps me up!

This is like a notebook entry, I just made it a blog by accident. LOL!

Love you all! Thanks for reading my random stoked thought process... It's hard to sleep at night... I wake up with a voracious appetite to accomplish those things cause they all sound so sick! So I write out my goals for that week on my white board and check them off as I do them, then I have all my slight edge decisions for the day to progress me in moving forward and I get to check them off. It's awesome! I love life... I wish I could take credit for that super sick process, I cannot... It's all Payton Parnegg... He's the man. I just do the typing

Uhhhh!

:)

Cantaloupe... The forbidden fruit

I just ate a half a cantaloupe, so wonderful. The seasons are changing and the end of the first quarter of 2012 is here. What did the first quarter do for your new years goals and resolutions?! Or I should rephrase, what did you do for your new years goals or resolutions in this first quarter?

I pondered my query over a bowl of chipotle chicken stew in which I prepared from scratch last night, well... It's funny how when you look at your goals and what you wrote down and all the things you were going to change, you some how end up losing steam and ending up in limbo unsure of whether or not to complete the goals and changes, and some of it is rightfully valid and some you have to factor that you have grown and those things you set out to do, may no longer be in alignment with where you want to be now. As for me...

Well, I entered into some legal stuff, that rocked my world, it's emotional and tests my mettle, I am grateful for the experience, I expanded into 2 other international markets and another venture with acquisitions and I decided to come out of retirement from multilevel marketing and go into a furious push to make some new friends, retire some old friends from their employment and get my income to about $25,000 a week. It can be done in 2012, I know that and the conditions are right. It just requires a great deal of work, so now I am open to helping 6 people make about $2500 a week. That's step one... I haven't emotionally been in this space in a while. I am excited about it and I understand the work ahead of me. Anything in life worth having is worth working or fighting for. As I see it, we are all going to put a good 40 hours a week into something, whether that's fatherhood, fitness, nutrition and wakeboarding (My current 40 hours) Or business or a job... What will your results be!? So that was a huge mental shift for me.

I am emotionally preparing for the worst... This is the part I dreaded for 3 years. I am going to do my best to call everyone I have ever known in my entire life and see if they are at a place in their life to make a good solid 2-3 year push at whatever their dream is, I understand that only maybe 2 out of 10 will actually be in a place where they are even open to looking into it, and even fewer are actually serious enough about their dream or situation to do something about it. So that means I will be calling a great deal of people to find the 6 that want it bad enough to do something for it. Lucky for me I know that I have the way that they can get their dream. I live mine every day.

oooohhhh! 5 years ago I read a book called "Secrets of the millionaire mind." The lady that did my eyebrows gave it to me, that booked changed my relationship with money, I doubled my income that next year, from a whopping $12,000 a year to $28,000. The whole book pitched the seminar, I went a year later to that seminar "The Millionaire Mind Intensive," and that fiscal year earned just over $60,000. They have one here in Salt Lake City April 19-21st! Tickets are $795.00 a person, it's worth it... But I met the CEO of that company through some friends and I now can get anyone in for free! It's so cool! So if you want to go, preregister through this link and you will probably make more money as a result... It worked for me. https://mmi.infusionsoft.com/go/14/mmi26070/

So my age old mantra (which I stole from my trusty friend Payton Parnegg) "NEVER take advice from someone you wouldn't trade places with." Everyone has unsolicited advice to give, I look at where they are as to if I would heed their council, you have unhealthy people giving advice on health, or poor people giving you advice on money, or people that settle in relationships giving you advice on relationships, this life is a journey and everything is a giant work in progress. We are all learning day by day but for the love of Cole Staley please never take advice from someone you wouldn't trade places with!

So much has happened in 3 months, my sister got married, I threw an LDS bachelor party, I went through the temple, overcame my fear of the back flip, learned all the wakeboard tricks that used to scare me, learned to cook 18 dishes and 2 new styles of cuisine, I got more fit, changed clothes sizes, hair style and footwear, pointy shoes are so 2011, time for something new, overcame fear of singing, took the birthday thing far beyond where it used to be, potty trained a puppy and became a loving dog owner, went snowboarding a few times this year, got new beds in the house and dialed the house perfect, fixed an inoperable truck, figured out what car I will buy next, traveled a bit, Helped Halli through her first crush and valentines day, took a trip with Halli, rode horses, shot guns, got into a custody thing with my ex, tweaked eating healthier and cut out popcorn, ice cream and candy bars, (now just need to eliminate cheese, tortilla chips and chocolate milk) I gave in to the twilight series, I visited friends, made new friends, made more money than I ever have in my life while not having a working vehicle, started up a new company, got a calling in church, witnessed a few baptisms of friends, reactivation of others, many epic bro downs, gym sessions and rapping sessions, fell in love 30-40 times, saw growth in so many people around me and grew a lot myself in the process. I got over the whole sense of urgency with getting married, I know who I am and what I am looking for so much more now than I ever have and I am grateful for that and I am in no hurry to move on to the next phase, I am good right where I am at.

Each person I date, meet or attract helps me define a little better what I am looking for in a partner, each girl helps me to be more open, more vulnerable and more communicative, every date gets me a little more prepared for my wife. They say that you attract what you are, so for me each girl is like a mirror and shows me where I am at, how much I have grown and who I am becoming, each girl gives me the opportunity to be the most genuine and vulnerable me, to communicate and express the really me just that much better, to bask in my insecurities and short comings, they all help me be more in touch with me and what I am looking for and where I am going and it's a wonderful phase to be in. I feel like I sculpt my soul every time I let someone in. Why would anyone want to rush that phase of life?! The longer we utilize this phase for what it is intended for and treat the people we date with respect we will end up in a much healthier relationship, every break up allows us a second chance, every good date, every bad date, every set up, this is such a wonderful place to be. I hope that I can become the man that my future wife doesn't want to live without and that every guy that she dates, treats her with respect. Dating is cool :)

On another note... Can you guess the car in the picture?! That's my dream car, but it's more of a goal car. I will buy it when I earn it. Guess what it is! I'll give you a clue, they only made that model in 2007-2008 and it has a 4.4L Supercharged V8 engine in it. :)

Switching gears here...

I believe God communicates with us through experiences first and foremost, then through people, then through words.. Your emotions have an incredible amount to do with how that communication is given and received. ie: "The spirit," "higher self," "intuition" "gut feeling" "subconscious," "Holy ghost," "Your conscience." Call it what you will, the way you feel is like the language which God communicates, it always knows. Your thoughts are like the devil, they doubt, cause fear, second guess, create a ton of negative emotions that make more negative thoughts and create the lousiest cycle.

I learned one thing from all the experiences, and the people this quarter.

You should always feel good emotions... IF you ever feel any bad ones... You are not exercising your faith in the fact that there is a bigger thing here at work and you have no trust in that.  I am such a prideful person sometimes and I constantly learn the same thing over and over and over... I am nothing without my God. EVERY time I do life on my own, I dig myself a hole, ruin something, mess things up, end up feeling empty, unfulfilled, lonely, sad, depressed, down, uncomfortable, lost, like something is missing and then I am faced with forcing a smile and fronting like I am happy, which sometimes I do. But it's no fun being drained all the time and feeling negative emotions. I end up turning to God again and again with the same attitude... Broken, feeling down and alone and the same realization... I am nothing without God. I think my mother said it best, "We try our best and maybe we only are capable of 20% But when we submit our will to God he gives us the other 80%."  So many times I take credit for that 80% or think I am awesome or I have good luck or something and the pride kicks in and then I end up back down again. But the first quarter has taught me this...

Life with God = :)

Life without God = :(

I am nothing without God, that's wild to admit and sure this blog might be preachy but that is the way that I feel and I have had to learn this lesson OVER AND OVER AND OVER again, it's not fun.

For me it is so easy to fall into the trap of not praying or giving God credit or focusing on that, pride is my greatest enemy and I battle it in every moment I breathe. The gauge for me personally to know if I am off track is when I start to feel any form of negative emotion, that is me being prideful and not demonstrating faith in God. It's kind of a cool place to be.

I was talking to a guy tonight that wasn't religious, doesn't believe in God, or any kind of religion. He believes in the law of attraction and positive thinking and karma and he's a good guy, he lives like this and it's amazing to see how richly blessed he is in his life. That's what it's all about! This guy is carefree and KNOWS that no matter what happens, he's going to love every minute of it because it is perfect for him and there is no sense in being down or feeling bad because he has faith that everything happens for a reason and it's not his job to know the reason. It is coming to love the journey and find the joy in it. I love it :)

There are 3 Quarters left in this year...

What will you do?!

November Knows no Limits

Whoa! What a wild month! This one was a doosie, Scorpio month!

This was the month I adapted to Scorpio style of life. I introverted much more than normal, I schemed and came up with the 5 year plan, revised it, streamlined it, dialed in all the loose ends, formed the necessary relationships, weighed everything out and then initiated the first day of Sagittarius month! This whole astrological way of life for 2011 became something fun that transitioned into something beautiful. To see the world through 52 different lenses and frames as each week passes is something so beautiful and it really makes you appreciate people's perspective.

This month moved right along. There was so much emotional growth, like leaping and bounding last month, I read many more books and grew a great deal mentally, there is so much to cover! As far as experiences for the month, this month was what 26 needed. It's "THE YEAR!" So the planning phase of this month was greatly utilized and needed. The show in Curacao was postponed till March but will be bigger, that was cool. RevvNRG had some massive growth this month, it was a record month on the business front. So many cool things, the meetings out grew the houses, we had so many people there. It was beautiful. Peter Parnegg flew out to Utah for a meeting and that was great to get to spend a little time with him. He is one of the best people I know. On the fun front, Payton Parnegg and I did our Radio Show and it went spectacular! Then we celebrated opening day of the ski season at Brighton with Chris Lengle and got wild on the mountain. I love where we live!

Halli and I grew a great deal this month. We really dialed in our set schedule, eating and bed times. She had such a fun month! We both agreed that it was time to get another dog. We went on the hunt through classified ad after classified ad and eventually found min pin/chihuahua puppies and immediately picked our puppy out of the litter and paid for it in advance. We were leaving for Chicago to visit our family for Grandmother's 80th birthday party the next day and it made sense to pick up our puppy when we got back. So Halli was truly excited for our return. The house got done this month, fully decorated and livable. Before we left for Chicago it was back to the way that it once was. The paint and marble and molding and bathroom and everything was completed. I came home from a busy day and it was about 1:30am and I got over zealous and decided to move everything in myself. It was great! Thank God for crossfit! I was able to pull that off!

This month was an interesting month of realizations of things coming full circle. I had a business debacle that led me to realize that I needed to be the leader I forgot how to be. If it's to be, it's up to me. I also was asked to be one of the speakers at my old high school's career day. That was cool seeing as I didn't even graduate. What a wonderful thing that was. Then that same day I was invited to teach a zone of missionaries how to read people and ask better questions and to enhance their abilities as missionaries. That was fun. I swear it wasn't me doing the talking. Hahaha! I finished and people were telling me good job and what not and I felt like my buddy Chris Lengle when he quotes that clip in the movie "Old School." where Will Ferrell gets smart when the pressure is on and he's like. "What just happened?! I blacked out!"  I had one of those moments. There was one missionary that they kept calling a ginger because of his red hair. Someone gave him a bottle of ginger ale and I thought it was the funniest thing I had seen that week and snapped a picture!

So since Curacao was postponed I didn't anticipate Chicago working out and failed to book tickets in advance and tentatively committed to driving with Sterling and Emily (Stermily) all the way to Chicago, so Halli and I hopped into Emily's Aveo jam packed with stuff and we hit the open road at like 3am that night and drove many hours into Kansas City, where I got to meet my cousin Helen and her husband Joel. They were so great and we stayed with them. I loved meeting them, they're some of the nicest people I have met! So loving and welcoming! It's always nice to know that I have cool family out there! This whole time on the trip I kept craving Chipotle! I NEEDED Chipotle! I googled it and found some in Iowa and took a detour there to get a chicken bowl and I was so pumped up from listening to audio books through my headphones for so many hours that I didn't realize I was loud and bombarding everyone in this massive Chipotle with my pumped up enthusiasm for food with integrity. One thing led to another and I was talking to everyone, getting people's phone number to talk to them about bringing RevvNRG to their town and the people at Chipotle gave me my meal free! It was so magical, so I went back in there with a ton of sticks of RevvNRGCabo in May for Halli's birthday, who knows at this point!

I got to be an uncle the entire time and spend quality time with my siblings and their significant others and the kids, Halli had a blast! We all connected and bonded really well with each other! It was wonderful! We enjoyed our extended family and it was cool to see us siblings take over the family and start creating our own traditions and to see where we came from and to realize our roots. This trip was priceless. I loved every minute of it. From this trip we planned "Dead David Day." A celebration of the life of our fallen brother. As well as our Christmas traditions and so on for the year. We breezed back home, got the puppy and took Bailee with for that! I had an epic time at home that night because I missed my kitchen and went on a cooking spree making just about everything I could think of :) That was really nice.

Dead David Day was one of the best memories that I have had all year. Danny, Nikki, Emily, Sterling, Myself and the kids and puppy all came to my house, had an enchilada off, ate as a family, figured out how we were going to decorate my house, then went to the store, bought all the decorations, went to Home Depot and bought a live Christmas tree, brought it home, decorated it as a family while listening to Christmas music, made 3 different kinds of cookies, chex mix and had an unforgettable time decorating the house and playing together making memories. Randomly, in the spirit of all the holiday festivities we forgot that it was supposed to be about David. We decided to stop off to help a guy having car trouble at the side of the road, he needed a ride to work as his car was too far gone, we took him and bizarre but we found ourselves not more than 3 minutes from David's grave. So we stopped off and said hi to him to complete the day and went home and decorate the tree and finished the house. It was a wonderful memory and day. I love every moment of it!

Next was Thanksgiving, this was a great time, I didn't get gluttonous and ate really clean. We had a wonderfully delicious family dinner at my parents house the Sunday following Thanksgiving. On the day of I went to their house and made Chicken Tortilla Soup, Hummus, and a salad. That was a nice time and we talked for a few hours about life and love and things. I feel blessed to have had so much family time this month. We then celebrated our family Thanksgiving Sunday. What a wonderful meal my mother prepared for us! It was magical! I thoroughly enjoyed it, so much color on my plate. It was great! 

I planned a truly magical event for my leaders and the people that earned the event and we had paid speakers come in and speak and teach them body language and help them with their relationships and their ability to expand their consciousness, it was a great turn out, 53 people attended at my place and all brought the dishes that they're most proud of, it was a really great event. I really enjoyed that and it was cool knowing that 53 people can fit in my house!

Halli had to have 2 teeth taken out at the dentist, she had an abscessed tooth and was really brave about it, it was REALLY cool to see her on laughing gas, I video taped her and I watch it and get a good laugh, Halli on drugs is funny! She loves her puppy! It's the perfect puppy for her, she puts her in her purse and takes her every where. Puppies completely test your ability to be consistent. :)

As far as inside, I learned so many wonderful lessons and grew a great deal. I realized that in my entire life I always had the thing I was working on, and then the thing on the side. For the past two years I lost sight of that. I have always had a side pursuit. I realized that I needed to structure my time differently. I have been consulting off and on for a few years for a few different organizations, companies, individuals etc, it is like coaching but completely different and then connecting and networking etc, I decided to create a company and align with one of the most successful and goodhearted individuals whom I love like a brother and move forward in that direction during the day and work my RevvNRG business in the evenings, compartmentalize my time with God, Myself and Halli in the mornings then fitness following Halli's departure for school. Then I will head to the office to work on my business and my new endeavor, following that I will come home around 3 to be there for Halli to do the after school dad time and then start working my RevvNRG business from about 5-9. Be it phone calls or a meeting or something of the nature but that is what then became my decision and I put it into action, I strategized how to effectively apply my new found time blocks to maximize the most production out of the least amount of time and I went for it. I can tell you that it feels so good to be on the path. 26 is the year I become a millionaire and I am set up and structure for it. I will create a massive net-worth on top of the liquid cash flow that will be coming in.

Spiritually there has been so much more temptation and stress attached to choices and the lesson to be learned here is to love. With great power comes great responsibility, and as I move forward to the temple... There are a growing number of temptations coming out of the wood work to try to stop me. But I will stay vigilant and on the path because nothing feels quite as good as living a good life and being consistent, healthy, fit and active. God is so good to us! I got to go to my good friend Kenny's baby blessing, his daughter Olivia was being blessed and that was such a neat experience to be there for. I cannot believe that he is a dad and that life is moving forward so fast. I love it so much! She's such a beautiful little girl. They're a blessed family and I am so excited for them! I got to stand in the circle and that meant a great deal to me. It was the first time I got to use my priesthood, this month I got my certificate as well. That was a really awesome experience.

This month I learned a couple REAL things this month.

1. If it's to be... It's up to me.  In my life I have learned with so many experiences and continue to learn that I cannot put my expectations in the hands of others. If I want something to turn out the way I planned, I have to be the one doing the work. They say "If you want something done right, do it yourself/" That's true. You have the vision, it's simple to get mad at someone or something when it isn't done the way you were counting on, truth is, you're the one with the vision. So do something about it. It gets so easy to blame when you stop working and put it into the hands of others or you rely too heavily on others. If you want to have it your way go to burger king or go to work. Don't expect others to do it for you. You've gotta go do it yourself.

2. The fastest way to change ANYTHING is to love it. Come what may, and love it. Robert is always telling me this, Joseph B Worthlin has a talk about this, it's in the bible countless times, God is described as it. I didn't really get it till I had an experience with it. "God is Love." the two major commandments, "Love your neighbor as your self." and "Love God." song's all talk about it. Love :) So here's my experience:

I was puking tremendously and there is nothing I hate more in this life than puking. I am bent over my bathroom counter and in the middle of this something clicked... What was going on in my head was... "Ugh, I HATE puking! This is awful! I hate this I hate this I hate this." I was strongly focused on puking and I was charging my focus with the emotion of hate. Hence creating more puking and in turn hating life in that moment. I was like... Hmmm. This is like that moment where Jesus is like "Not what I want, What you want." When he is in the garden before they come to take him and he asks God if there's anyway he can get out of having to die and he then submits his will to God's and says, "Nevertheless not what I want what you want." It made me think in this moment of puking.  This was the end result... "I am going to puke, I already am puking and I cannot get out of puking... Rather than faking like I love it, I may as well just submit my will to loving it. God wants this to happen, EVERYTHING happens for a reason and this is some how perfect for me in this moment or else it wouldn't be happening, I get to enjoy this cause it's what I am supposed to be doing right now. I guess as strange as it sounds... I love this... and I mean it. God has a plan for me so not what I want, what he wants... And BAM!!! Like that, I no longer had to puke. I got up, brushed my teeth and then ate some enchilada's since I had just puked up the ones I had just eaten. The evening went on and I learned a valuable lesson. You can change anything by loving it.

Think about when someone is yelling at you and you're in an argument, LOVE THEM! They can't stay mad. Try it! You'll be at peace and they'll calm down. Love them. If you are mad at stupid drivers, love them you'll end up understanding and at peace. If you are sad or hating on something. Love it! You'll be grateful. Anything you can think of, Love it! God has a purpose for all things, we are small minded to think that we have any right to feel anything but love for where we are and what we have and what we get to experience, This whole thing is so much bigger than us and all things have a purpose. For us to do anything other than love is to mock God in a manner of speaking and to be ungrateful and to "Miss the point and prove it anyway"

So Try loving on people, places, things and on situations. People always say "Make the best of it." Well, you are in the situation because you were put there whether you believe it was by God, by your choices and actions or by fate, you are there, if you dislike where you are, Change it by loving it, you're there to learn a lesson, we all are. Learn your lesson by loving it, then move on. Love is all that is. :)

Thanks for reading this! :)

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Libra Month!

This month I am sad to see go by, I have had a hard time parting with Libra month! This has been one of the best October's I have ever had. We can start off October with Halli picking out her puppy, a golden retriever she would grow to call "Max." Followed by Bryan Robert's Birthday! He is a man that has greatly impacted my life more than most people have and I am the man I am today largely because of him. And General Conference for the LDS church was also at the same time. So there was much packed into the first week, I got to go to 3 sessions of conference and one of which I got to go with Tyler Harris and Tyler Hutchinson, it was a proverbial Tyler sandwich. Conference was amazing! Spiritually uplifting and it really put things into perspective, talk about starting Libra Month off right!

Next Payton Parnegg and I started our radio show. We had our first broadcast the day after conference, It will be a monthly thing and it went really well. I can't hardly wait till the next one! As far as Media stuff went this month, The Chicago Tribune wants to interview me for the birthday thing in conjunction with a good friend of mine's website, then also The teach Jim show had me on as a guest and I was interviewed for Network Marketing and what not. So this has been a media rich month.

I got to spend some time with Bailee and Halli and go out to eat and have fun with them. I love being an uncle. I have the most adorable niece and nephew. They're so great and it is so wonderful watching them grow up and seeing how smart they are. Bailee is so intelligent it is so crazy to me. She has such a personality!

Physically speaking, I have been consistently going to crossfit for 2 months now, I am used to in and getting in the groove of how my form should be and it is getting really fun! I love my workouts and I feel so blessed to be able to go in the mornings. I am seeing different definition and a transformation of my body in a different way than I am used to. My diet has been so much more dialed and I implemented Kangen water this month, when I am alkaline and properly hydrated and eating good, clean food, I feel so good. Sleep schedule was so on point. I played with Melatonin all month long. I had deeper higher quality sleep when I took melatonin and I enjoyed having my sleep schedule completely regulated. Physically this was an incredible month. I also Ran a 10k. I almost committed to running the Las Vegas Ragnar, it was too close to my birthday and I had other plans.

Mentally I pushed myself at crossfit but I was pretty out of my head trying to assess my entire life to this point, I had my birthday, 26!!! This was "THE YEAR" ever since I was a kid, I always thought 26 was the year I got married, became the millionaire, and had the lifestyle and was a singer and could dance in front of thousands of people and do charity stuff and have kids and cool cars and a boat. It was 26!!! So I mentally went into bat cave mode and assessed my path, my life, who I was, who I am, I went into crazy detail as to what I was going to do. I didn't really read any books this month, I am slacking there. This next month I will read, absorb and apply 2 or 3 books to make up for it.

Emotionally this was quite the month! I have felt like crying more this month than ever before. To see where I am in comparison to 25, 24, 23, 22 or 17. I am astonished at who I am and how I think and what goes on in my inner workings and I feel like crying because I am so overwhelmed with love and gratitude to all the people that shared a little of their story with me and who they are and how much I have grow from those around me that has molded me into who I am today. So many people collectively have saved me. I am so blessed to be alive today. On my birthday I felt so much love from so many people, some people sent me the nicest, most kind texts, voicemails, calls and facebook posts. I felt so loved and I could not believe it was real. I was overwhelmed. 26 is finally here. This month on a very personal, internal emotional level was unexplainable. Robert Lopez who is kind of an emotional and spiritual mentor of mine really helped me get past some self imposed emotional limitations that I had and he opened me up to some major growth. I feel like my heart is a muscle and I was stopping the recovery process from its last work out. Well, I was able to let so much go, be open to so much more and grow a great deal. This month was like emotional spring cleaning and gearing up for the capacity to love and accept others and become the man I was destined to be at 26.

Financially I cannot believe I am here. The money is getting crazier every week! I am loving it and being so blown away by it and there are some major things in the works that are coming up here in the next couple of months that will add to that that will be cool. But financially I grew a great deal in the ability to buy myself stuff. for my birthday I got myself a bed!!! I have been needing one for like 25 years! haha

Spiritually has had the most growth I would say, getting ready to receive the Melchizedek priesthood has been a challenge, I swear temptation comes out of nowhere when you least expect it and you end up going head to head with it and you do your best. I love that God cares about us so much to forgive us of whatever we do wrong to prepare us for the next steps that he has for us. I know it has been a little over 2 years since I have become LDS and I am just now receiving the priesthood but it wasn't time back then. That advancement took place two days after my birthday, as I write this right now I cannot even begin to describe the peaceful feelings that I feel and the responsibility at my feet with this higher level of accountability. I feel so honored to be here at this moment holding this responsibility. I am grateful and cannot believe I have come this far! I still have temptations and I still mess up and make wrong choices but that's why I love prayer and forgiveness :)  On another spiritual note, Robert Lopez has been working with me more closely and is helping me develop my spiritual gifts and ability with people and being able to love more, and to grow past some of my own limitations which has been tremendous.

So Birthday #1 started Monday - Wednesday, It was Sunday night and I was restless and felt like leaving town. I decided to leave for Boulder City with my friend KC that next morning to spend a few days at "Pirates Cove." Which is an all inclusive mansion of a multi millionaire network marketer (who shared the same birthday as me I might add) from another company that took a massive mansion and pirate themed the place and put water slides and rope swings and a really high 45 foot mast to dive off of. This place had like 4 huge garages loaded with cars, boats, toys, trucks etc... 25 themed suites 35 bathrooms 5 kitchens, it was nuts. There were people that had flown in from all over and a soft serve ice cream machine by the pool, it was beautiful. I escaped there till Wednesday and enjoyed myself and made friends with everyone. Worked out in their private gym, did a little kickboxing as well. My friend Zach Wall was down at Lake Mead that weekend and so we met him at the dock and went wakeboarding one final time to say goodbye to the season properly.

On the way down to Pirates Cove I got to stop at the master distributor of another company's house and see her estate. She had one of the biggest libraries I have seen in a person's home. It was huge! On the way home we stopped off in Vegas, had lunch at Chipotle and then grabbed a new pair of pointy shoes from my favorite shoe store :) I got home 30 minutes before midnight (the time I was actually born around between the 19th and 20th) and at exactly midnight, Emily and Sterling came over and wished me a happy birthday and we hung out! It was awesome! It made me so happy!


Thursday (Birthday #2) Halli and I went and got a pamper day! Manicure, Pedicure, Facial, Eyebrow Wax and we both got our hair cut, then we got lunch at Chipotle then went shopping for clothes. It was a great day! I bought myself a bookshelf and my bed that day! It was such a wonderful day, until we found out "Max" (Halli's puppy that would get to leave his mommy the next day) had to be put down that day. Halli was devastated and it put a damper on the day. So we got dinner at Chipotle and then I got a full body massage + Energy work, it was so amazing! Then I did a RevvNRG meeting at my friend's Brian and Pam Robinson's house and they gave me a black on black hat for when my head explodes that was custom made that said "KG' on the front. It meant a lot to me that they'd go out of their way for me like that!

Friday (Birthday #3) was the one that meant the most! It was my intimate circle of friends! I started the day out alone, I got to enjoy a day where I did what I love to do and then I went and bought all my bedding, had lunch at chipotle and went shopping and got some decorations for the house, a couple pairs of sunglasses, went BMW shopping and looked at some wedding rings, then I went to Mandy and Bryan's house and I had a great party there with my favorite treats, some great people and some cool gifts and I got to enjoy their company and we went paintballing! it was so much fun!!!

Saturday (Birthday #4) This was fun! I enjoyed the first night in my bed! so amazing! and I had a great action packed day bright and early going Paintballing outside with my brother Danny and roommate Tyler. We went in the woods in Provo canyon and got our male bonding on! it was nice! I got home, took a shower, hit the gym really hard, meditated and then met my parents for dinner at chipotle, we talked about my life and I really got to connect with them, it was amazing spending that quality of time with them. I have great parents!

I always said that 26 would be the year, I found old journals that talked about 26. I am set to be a millionaire at 26, I have an estate plan drawn up from when I was 9 that is set for 26, marriage was set for 26, I feel ready for her. I want to go through the temple before I am ready for her. I need to be operating at that level before God puts her in my life. A woman's heart should be so deeply rooted in God I should have to seek him to find her. It is about to begin, the heavy lifting of a massive year long push to accomplish all those things. The dance show we were going to do in November just got postponed and I went and learned all the dances and overcame my fears of that. Singing has progressed and moved right along, that's no longer an issue. I have played guitar more this month than ever, I rap a lot less. I got myself waxed, that was wild! I like the way it feels though.

Being a dad has been something that has become more and more the day to day task that I look forward to. I am on the PTA and I am a classroom volunteer and we had Halli's Halloween party and so I coordinated with some of the classroom moms to put together this fun party for the kids, they loved it and we brought all these treats and had a Halloween costume fashion show on an orange carpet. It was so fun! Halli loved that I was there. I dressed up like a monkey! That was a blast!  That night Bryan and Mandy had a big Halloween party up at their house so we went to that. It was fun.  Halli has gotten on such a routine this month, she is asleep by 9 most nights, she gets up at the same time every day, she eats the right amount of calories and foods, she is stimulated pretty well and we still find time to go to the library and do the things we normally do, there was a major decline in daddy daughter dates this month. I made it a great deal more about me this month. But now that libra month is over and done with it's onward ever onward.

I learned a couple things this month.

1. People are nothing more than mirrors. When we compliment people, it's almost like we are complimenting ourselves on what we like about ourselves, if there is something about someone that we don't like, it usually means that there is something about ourselves we don't like. everyone is supposed to teach us something. We have to ask ourselves "What does else could this mean?" And find positive meanings for everything. So like when someone makes us mad and we are upset at them, we stop, pause and ask ourselves, why am I so mad? and maybe I need to learn patience or forgiveness or something. But it is a great way to stop and just feel peace.

2. There is nothing wrong with making it about you sometimes. We all gotta get ours, taking an hour a day to yourself to fill up your own cup can allow you to be present in all the other things that you do, it's amazing what a little "Me time" can do. It's selfish to not take time for yourself. Otherwise it leaves you showing up drained when it's time to be a parent, a son or daughter, a friend, at work, etc. You gotta take care of yourself so you can take care of others!

3. Being Self Conscious is Selfish. When we focus on ourselves, we are being "self conscious." Conscious of selves. When we worry how we are, how our actions affect other people and what people think of us, it inhibits us from doing what we want to do and say what we want to say and it completely affects our self esteem and self image over time, making us question our value. It's a big thing. So you have to have a defense for it. So instead of paying so much attention to ourselves it makes more sense to pay attention to others. So go on the offense. When you get self conscious, let that be a trigger that makes you initiate a conversation and connection with someone else. Make their day by getting out of your own way and asking them how THEY are doing, find out about THEIR life, what THEY'RE into, what lights THEM up and what makes THEM who THEY are. Don't talk about you, get to know about THEM, people love to answer questions about THEMSELVES and if you are genuinely listening and taking the time to understand them and you're enthusiastic about what THEY'RE saying and asking more questions, THEY will feel important, understood, and THEY will be smiling and will like you. The whole time it'd never have even been about you, and they won't know much about you, other than you're cool and you made THEIR day and THEY like you. It's great from the introvert because they prefer to listen than to talk, so they enthusiastically ask questions and then listen. It's awesome! So the bullet pointed absolute truths I have learned in my life that this is derived from and should give you peace of mind to follow as a guideline would be:

-The best defense is a good offense.

-The person that asks questions is in control of the conversation

-People's favorite subject are themselves.

-You have two ears and one mouth, be proportionate.

-Enthusiasm is contagious at least 50%

-Smiles are contagious

Don't be selfish, take the focus off yourself, go out and love on some people. I heard an Epic quote by an Epic individual that said: "If you stop thinking about yourself, and love on some people, all with a sense of urgency, you'll probably lose yourself in the process and find yourself along the way." There you have it.

November will be BIG! Thank you for reading. Feel free to post a link on your page if this moves you at all.

Remember September?

Oh September, what a glorious month!

This was a fast moving month, first and foremost I did not take many pictures. This is something that I need to change for October.  We started off September with my dad's birthday and we had a little BBQ at my house as a celebration. It was fun. We cooked up a bunch of different kinds of meats in Danny's smoker. I marinaded them and rubbed them all a little bit different. That was a fun time, Then things went back to the usual stuff, I started working RevvNRG harder than I ever have before, it is easy and fun and I enjoy it a great deal, so many people are making great money and it is happening fast. There is something magical happening there. I look at my weaknesses and insecurities and this month they have been conquered. I am in a new space that I have not been in before. God comes along and lets life teach me patience and when I think I am doing good I get a lesson in humility. I am in a place where I am the new guy that is learning. Life is my greatest teacher.

I used to have a MAJOR fear of singing, a MAJOR fear with self consciousness of dancing, a MAJOR fear of water (not knowing how to swim, traumatizing near death drowning experiences as a child, PTSD with deep water) and the big thing that I have struggled with was my sleep schedule. I am a chronic night owl, I have slept in my whole life. So last year I knocked out the fear of Water and I started wakeboarding, this year I really solidified that, as the wakeboarding season is coming to a close I can see the progression and where I need to improve but I am the one that is the beginner that is just learning, I am used to being good at things. So I am still learning and it's interesting to be in that space. Then there was dancing, I learned country and Latin and some ballroom and west coast swing but I hadn't actually tackled the fear or the dancing yet. I thought I had, this month I hit that head on... My friend Tyler Hutchinson came to stay with Halli and I while he gets on his feet for a couple months, we met in Florida a few months back and he's become a good friend of mine. Well, he does stuff with a huge entertainment company and they booked a sold out charity show for child abuse of 6,500 people in the Island of Curacao, which is in the Caribbean off the coast of Venezuela, all part of the Aruba, Bonaire, Curacao chain called the ABC Islands, and RevvNRG is opened over there, so I decided to go down there with them to partake in the show and also build RevvNRG in the Caribbean cause that'd be a fun place to go in the future with my family and friends, so now I am a paid performer in this kid's show, I got casted as one of the lead roles in this show, so I have lines and have to learn a bunch of dances. I have NEVER done anything like this before and all the other performers have dance experience so this is a breeze for them, I am the one behind, learning and beginning.

It brings me back to when I was young. People see me now, they don't see who I was, some that knew me back then do, but most don't. I never had any special skills, or natural talents, if you ever read the story of Teddy Roosevelt, I resonate with that. I always wanted to be "Good enough." Like able to be where everyone else was at, so I worked so hard on whatever it was to excel at whatever it was because I started below average. It has always irritated me when people say how lucky I am or talented or whatever, it diminishes the work I have done and they almost don't believe that I had to work to it. I was always super shy growing up, I had no friends in my first couple years of school and ate lunch alone, always picked last in class stuff, that was me.

On that note... Physically, I started crossfit, I lowered my pride, humbled myself and listened to Payton Parnegg and signed up and started, I changed my diet and water intake and I have started that, it is so intense, to feel like you are going to die every morning and wanting to pass out and getting so dizzy that you question if you are going to finish or die, it's a very addicting feeling. I am training for the Utah Valley Marathon June 9th. I am stoked for it. Talk about a goal! At crossfit I am the weak one that is the beginner that has no idea what is going on, when I am running, I am the slow one that cannot keep up. In all aspects of my life I have done this. Humbled myself, found a mentor, a coach or a teacher of some sort for each aspect and I have submitted my will to theirs and became teachable in order to grow, I must go to the next level in this life.

Emotionally, I cracked my rib and got kidney issues from it and was in severe pain and I met a next level spiritual energy healer named Robert Lopez, I have never met anyone like this in my life, he had me hold my hand up and did some wild energy stuff that I didn't understand or believe in and I could breathe again, it's been over a week and I have been able to go back to normal from not being able to breathe, I never believed in miracles like that but I witnessed one in my own body and cannot explain it. As a result he has become an emotional mentor of mine this month, he has helped me grow emotionally an insane amount in a short time. Leaping and bounding the old me, I am also dating again, not hiding behind the idea of someone or something like that. I am 100% open to any possibility, I am back to being fully open to this:"A woman's heart should be so deeply rooted in God that I should have to seek him to find her." Genuinely I have never been in a better emotional place, my capacity to love other people and to love myself has expanded and is continuing to grow. It's awesome!

Spiritually I am moving forward in that, I celebrated my 2 year anniversary of having God in control of my life and being a member of the LDS faith, can't believe it has been 2 years already. Wow! feels like I am still new and I don't know much about it all yet, but I love it and of what I do know and am learning it makes more sense than anything I've ever known. I am so excited for General Conference this coming weekend, and this October I am receiving the Melchizedek Priesthood two days after my birthday which will be exciting. God is more in control of my life now than ever before, I am like not tempted by anything I used to be tempted by, nothing feels as good as living right.

Mentally I have been challenging myself like crazy by running, doing crossfit, over extending myself in business, reading many books and continuing my education, this area needs more TLC but self image has shifted a great deal as well as thinking errors, these are symbolic of the whole fear of singing, I acquired a voice coach and I have leaped and bounded where I was, I was so insecure about singing my whole life and I started like maybe a year ago, but I got a coach this month and in about 4 lessons I am starting to understand it, now for years of rigorous practice.  Snowboarding season is almost here. I cannot wait to do that. I think I am going to buy all new gear this year and a season pass. I want to make snowboard a 3 day a week 9-3 type thing. We shall see though.

Financially, I went to California and spent some time building RevvNRG and sharing great experiences with friends, this was a spur of the moment trip that you leave in an hour and roll out and drive through the night but it was wonderful, the ocean water was quite cold. Good times.  Business is BOOMING, things are moving so fast, big things in the works, I am going to add a big zero to my income and help like 10 people quit their job next month, I turned it on like never before in business. I am so fired up and motivated to help people accomplish their goals because I have now accomplished mine. So I am on the war path, no one can tell me that RevvNRG doesn't work, I will just show them my bank account, they can't argue with reality, they just don't believe that they can do it. I know that they can, if they really want a genuine change in their lives this could be it for them. So it's THAT time where the path to being a 26 year old millionaire begins, by my birthday next year I will have done it and brought a bunch of people with me. I found the car that I want, $100 a gas tank twice a week is not a very wise thing, put it into perspective. That's $10,000 a year in gas, vs getting a car or something where it's like $80 a week and it's faster and more fun to drive, and I don't have anxiety about getting on it, that's like $5000 a year in gas, if I had a $400 car payment and I just had the truck sit in the garage that'd be $4,800 in a year on my car payment. That'd still be a budget cut and I'd have a new car and spend $10,000 in a year. It's much more efficient and would cost the same. So I went car hunting, reading about them and I will buy a black on black BMW 335xi, this is the all wheel drive, twin turbo, 3.0 liter in line 6, I will get intake, exhaust, Dinan stage 2 tuning, 19" Black and chrome wheels, HID angel eye projectors, tint, eyelids and remote start and it'll be perfect, like the image in my head. It'll be like the version 5.0 of my last car that I miss so much. So I am pumped for that.

Halli and I had a great month, she got to go to San Diego with her mom and Abdullah, (boyfriend) she was so happy to be home when I picked them up from the airport, it was cool. Halli has been integrating well into school, our favorite times are the conversation we have in the morning before the bus comes, I make her lunch every day :) I love that little habit, it adds so much meaning to my life, then walking her to the bus stop and praying as we depart, then my reason to live and wake up everyday and what I live for is this moment right here: About 3:39pm Monday - Thursday you will find me sitting on my red couch in my garage, and bus 96 passes our house, my heart starts beating faster, and sticking out the window is the biggest smile in the world and red hair flapping in the wind and you see light beaming from this little 7 year old's eyes as she waves furiously and yells "Hi Daddy!"  That is the moment I live for, there is no greater joy or fulfillment in my world than that right there. Then I run to the bus stop and we run to each other and there is a big hug and kiss, then we talk about her day and what's been up in her and my world that day and then we do her homework together and go over what she learned and eat a nice snack. I live for that moment right there. Ahhhh! we went to "Scoopology" this month, we pass it at least 10 times a week and Halli had been wanting to go there for a while so I asked her if I could take her on a date and then we went there and she got coconut gelato and cotton candy ice cream topped with Swedish fish. Halli got a Hair cut for the first time! We straightened it and you can see it in the picture. it's cute! I miss when it was like shoulder length curls. I loved it.  Bed time is always a really cute time with Halli, She is so cute, she flosses incessantly and has excellent technique, she sets her alarm clock and wakes herself up every morning, gets herself ready, checks all her stuff out to make sure it's all good, then... She comes and gets me up, or else I am downstairs making her lunch or breakfast, depends on the day.

I realized a great deal this month

1. If we don't start ourselves out at the bottom we will bottom out.  This was a funny concept, here I am realizing that there was a massive reassessment and bottoming out in my world, it's like a snake shedding skin, then there is growing involved, my house and truck went through overhaul and renovate mode last month and are nearing completion, I personally gave my notebook the same thing, then September was a month of massive beginnings and all the things I am doing I am on the bottom, unsure, not very good at, all new things, all challenging, all a little scary and in some ways, intimidating. Running, Crossfit, Decorating my new home, Church, Business in new territory, singing, wakeboarding, metaphysical and spiritual matters. In general it's humbling but it's change and it's starting on the bottom. We all plateau in our lives and get comfortable. It's recognizing that we are complacent and comfortable and that we need to grow and if we don't take action and put ourselves into a place where we can grow and an environment that will push us to the next level where it does get uncomfortable in the beginning but it'll take us higher, we will bottom out, get deflated and live that life that is a little less fulfilling.

2. You have to love yourself before you'd ever allow anyone else to love you. Love in general was a big one, love seemed to be the commonly running theme all month long, I feel I need to expand my capacity to love, in church that seemed to be what would stick out to me the most and in life as well, I want to have "I love you" Relationships with everyone. I see who they are and who they have the potential to become when I look in their eyes and I think they're beautiful and I love them for who and what they are. I learned that you cannot truly love someone else until you are opened to be loved. Most people are so closed off that they will not allow themselves to be loved, watch how often everyone is always folding their arms, try to connect with a person on a level for who they are to truly share with them in their lives and they fold their arms. "no, I'm just cold." or "It's more comfortable that way." Or, "What?! I always stand like this." Yes!!! You are cold! Yes!!! It would be far more comfortable to not let anyone it. Hahahahaha! YES! You do always stand like this!!! You have to love yourself before you'd ever allow anyone else to love you, let alone before you can truly love someone else. I realized I wasn't allowing people to love me, this was a very true revelation. Now as a result I am back in that place I was once in before I'd ever dated and had my first love. It's pretty new and really cool to be there.

3. God will always Bail us out, and all he asks for in return is that we be a better person. What a sweet trade off?! There are like 4 types of prayers, I have been guilty of them all. I will relate prayer to like when you are talking on the phone to one of your friends.

           1. "Bro, I messed up I'm stuck, I need you to come help me." Then the next time you call you need something again and every time you call, you need something, you say thanks after it's done and then only call up when you need or want something. This is the empty cup.

            2. "Bro... Hang on a sec... Oh!! you're still there!? My bad, Hang on a sec..." This is where you call your friend and you stay on the line but talk to the people around you and leave your friend hanging on the line and when you start conversation back up with your friend, you place them on hold and talk to the people around you again. This is the half full or half empty cup but where a decision hasn't been made on which stance they'll take/

             3. "Bro... SO SICK!!! Just got the truck all gassed up, cleaned on the fridge, made some hummus, getting the floor dialed, chillin' with a couple epic friends, lovin' conference and bein' stoked I'm alive, havin' a good day... Gotta go, Thanks man! Peace!"  This is where we need to be more often. Just callin' to say hi and thanks. This is where the cup is pretty full

              4. "Bro... Thank you so much for all this stuff you gave me, this little body of mine is EPIC! it like moves when I tell it to and it can see and stuff, and this little device lets me push a button and talk to people thousands of miles away! Uhhh! This car is amazing! I sit in it and can go hundreds of miles without having to feed it and give it water! Thank you for MY LIFE! UHHHHH!!! I have so much cause you keep on hooking me up!!! Uhhhh! Is there anything I can do for you!?"  This is where the cup is full and spilling onto the floor.

I want to be the fourth prayer all the time, we all do, it's just that sometime life gets in the way and what not. But to be in that place of gratitude and love all the time, feels really good. If you stop to think just how much you have to be grateful for it is overwhelming. If I was blind, I wouldn't be able to see my daughter smile, or lovingly look at me, I wouldn't see a sunset, be able to drive, look at paintings, watch a movie, shoot people with paintball guns, snowboard, wakeboard, see a pretty face, watch fireworks, read, enjoy a rainbow. There are so many things I have the capability to do that I have to be grateful for. Think of life without your feet and what your life would be like... No running, snowboarding, crossfit, it'd be inconvenient in a public bathroom, in the woods, in the city, you would have a tough time if there weren't elevators, dancing wouldn't be possible, driving would be more difficult, you'd depend on others so much that it'd stifle independence. There are a great deal of privileges we have that we don't appreciate there. I could go on and on about this all day! It's just great to be alive! Uhhhh!!! I get so pumped up! you try wiping the cheesy grin off my face right now! To think that this God guy just hooked it up like that for me cause he loves me and if I ever get in a bad spot where I need a GM style bail out, he's got my back and in return for that... He just asks that I be a better person. That's the kind of relationship I want to have with everyone! It's a worthy Ideal and it pumps me up. Uhhhh!

October is going to be EPIC!!! So many reasons...  Thanks for reading this!